smithereens.

VII. skin

my body is aching from the cold

my heart is beating quite slow 

my mind is the safest place i know

open my eyes and refrain the rage

my lipstick's ready for another day 

the mirror reflects a different face

the sky has a dark shade of gray

umbrellas are open, smiles start to fade

almost everybody hates it when it rains

walking past the crowded streets 

it's so quiet in this car, i might fall asleep

you can even hear the blood in my veins 

we can't make time to stop and talk 

we can't stop the walls from crashing down 

you're a rebel ocean, and i'm used to drown

i'd trade all my money for you to love me again 

i wanna sit down and cry, but i just can't 

no, not until we bring this to an end 

the rain is falling as a metaphor for grief

my voice is gone, but i sing through my tears

i'm feeling numb as the raindrops touch my skin

i feel like i'm underwater, but i can breathe 

heaven's crying, but hell is breaking free 

i can see clear, all my fears, through my skin 

i watch your face as you stop by the door

never thought we could go so far 

i wish i could hold the offenses against you 

but i always knew you were the bad news

oh, i know i should've said it before 

but i can't hold it back anymore 

say my name again, and i'll walk away 

it's funny how things change within a day

i like to look at you sound asleep 

while i linger in the doorway 

although the sound of your heartbeat 

makes this house feel like a fucking cage 

did you ever love me, love me enough to know? 

did you ever want me to stay for your show? 

where's the man i love when the lights are low?

with you, i feel like i've been left alone 

now you know how it feels to be sucker punched

people like me are always the last ones to let go 

my hopes faded like the dust

and even though i want it to hurt

i don't have the right to feel the pain 

made a hundred mistakes in a row 

but my tears are made of gold 

i won't ruin everything for your love