History has it's eyes on you

Chapter 4: Downtown

This is such a mess.
When I saw Phillip standing there, singing his self-made song, my heartbeat went faster. He made me undone. He made me feel like the luckiest man in this world. Filled with pride.. "Phillip, you did everything just right. Shhh..", I said while remembering the last minutes I had with my son.
I closed the door. Knowing Eliza would believe that I'm done. I should go and have a walk.
I opened the door: "Angelica!", I said. I looked into a beautiful pair of eyes. "Alexander, Eliza told me that you don't feel good. Is everything okay?" She said worrying about me, kinda looking sad. "I'm fine, Angelica. I just need to take a walk.", I answered even I didn't know what actually happened to me. "I came all this way", she got even more worried. "I'm sorry, Angelica. Please let me take some time to rest. Or at least some time to get my mind clear.", I didn't wait for her answer and walked away. "Alexander...", her last words to me before I left the house to let me doubt myself.

Outside, walking downtown, I had enough time to clear my mind. It was quiet uptown. "Alex, is everything fine? Are you okay, Alexander?", at least that's what my wife and my favorite Schuyler sister asked me. Am I that lost? Am I out of order? What if I will never be how I was before? I doubt myself again, questioning if I could ever get how I was just a few days before. This time I f**ked up myself. Dependently of my mind, am I out of order?
I shook my head. Stop thinking such dumb things! I still can write thousands of Pamphlets to end the reign of the King, so I won't hear a "hear ye, hear ye" ever again.
"Alexander.", said Burr, coming out of nowhere. He looked at me like I'm stupid. "I'm not stupid.", I said, didn't stop walking. Lord, what did I just said? Burr was definitely confused. I stopped while I took a look at his questioning face. "Man, I didn't picture you would go downtown alone, without your wife". I knew that he wasn't ready for a new partnership. Since no one knows what he's for, I kept asking myself if he'd be a good president. No, George Washington would run for president again. And I bet Burr wouldn't win against Washington. No matter who his enemies are.
Silence. "Hamilton, what are you up to?", Burr kept asking me weird stuff. "I need to clear my mind, Burr.", I sounded annoyed. He recognized it. "Oh, you know what? Stop wasting my time. I tried to be nice!" Actually, when did I became the bad guy in this story? I mean, neither is Burr but was it a crime that I want to get my mind straight again? I don't get him. "Burr, Sir, you know my work is important. Respect that I need some free time, without having someone around.", nicely explaining it with a calm voice, so he won't misunderstand me. "Of course!", you are an orphan. I'm an orphan too. Things get easier to straighten up then.
I walked further.

After a while of walking and telling my mind that everything would be okay, I went home.
Eliza was waiting for me. "Welcome home", she said and continued, "George Washington wants to see you, Alex.", she smiled, not knowing why or what would happen next. "Thanks, I'm going then.", I gave her a quick kiss before left.
During the walk, to get to Washington's apartment, I should mention that I'm completely freshened up in my mind!

Arriving at the apartment, I knocked on the door, wondering what brought me here.
"Please come in.", Washington said. I opened the door, then noticed that Burr was there too. "Please close the door behind you, Burr.", Washington said. An angry man walked away and closed the door slightly. "Mr. President, you asked to see me?", I asked. "I know you're busy", I actually wasn't but: "What do you need Sir?", I wait for some seconds: "Sir?" He answered after a break of silence. "I wanna give you a word of warning". 
"Sir, I don't know what you heard. But whatever it is, Jefferson started it.", I got a bit nervous.