Kill or be killed

Chaotic

"Why the fuck do you have this?".
He said again but this time with more anger. He clenched his jaw looking straight at me.
What the fuck do I say.

"Veronica. Answer me".
He said with his teeth gritted
This is bad. Why on earth didn't I get rid of it.
"Look. If you think that I'm gonna use it against you, your insane".

He scoffed at my comment. "I'm insane. ME. WHY THE FUCK DO YOU HAVE THIS BOOK".

He shouted getting closer.
"Calm. Down. I just have it ok. I ain't going to do anything with it".
He got closer and chucked the book in my direction, flying right past my face, the cold air hitting me.

"If you ain't gonna do shit with it..."
He backed me up against the wall, steam blowing out of his ears.
"WHY THE FUCK DO YOU HAVE IT....ANSWER ME".
He punched the wall again and again.

"I'm really loosing it with you Veronica. You test me so fucking much".
Why won't I say something.
I shouldn't be afraid.

"Hunter. Fuck. Off. I'm not gonna deal with you. I'm tired, stop acting like a dick. If I wanted to use this against you I would have done it ages ago. Stop being a dick and get over yourself".

I say pushing him back and poking his chest making him look at me in a confused way.

I just made him more angry. Fuck.
He grabbed my neck and bashed me against the wall.

"HOW. DARE. YOU."

He started squeezing harder and harder.

I CANT FUCKING BREATH.
He didn't let go and just looked at me. Weak. In pain. My entire body was already hurting and this. I can't even describe it.

I vision started going blurry and I stopped struggling.
"H-...hu-nter".

His eyes widened and he let go making me drop to the floor taking deep breaths.
"Veronica I-i-I'm so sorry. I didn't mea-
Fuck".

He ran a hand through his hair while I tried to gain my breath back.
He bent down to help me up but I slapped his hand away.
"Don't fucking touch me......just don't touch me".

Why am I getting so damn emotional. He hurt me.
"Please. Let me help you. Your already in so much pain".
He said helping me up.

"Hunter. Get the fuck out. Now".
He nodded and left the room.

It hurts. Why. Just why.
Come on. Don't get sad. I hope no one heard that.

I need to talk to someone. I need to let it out. My anger. My sadness. Everything.
Sanchez. He listens. And cares.

I need a shower first, that hospital was disgusting.
I stripped out of my clothes and went into the shower.
I could barley move my arms. I feel like glass. If I fall that's it for me.
After a nice warm shower I got out and decided what to wear. Well I ain't going anywhere, and I ain't here to impress, so I'll just wear some sweatpants.

After getting changed I went to Sanchez's room.
Should I knock.......nah.

I opened the door and my jaw dropped. Sanchez stood their...naked. He saw me and quickly took a towel to cover himself.
"U-uh. I'm sorry. I-I'll wait outside".
I quickly shut the door, resting my head against it.

I really should have knocked.
The second time I've walked in on someone naked.

The door open and Sanchez let me in.
"I'm sorry. I should have knocked".
I say shutting the door.
"Don't worry it's fine".

Should I tell him. He always listens. But sometimes.......I regret it.
I'm good with opening up to people.

"So. Is there anything you need?".
He questioned.
Yes. I need a friend right now.
"I just need someone to talk to".
I say trying not to make eye contact. Don't make this awkward.

"Sure. Come, tell me what's on your mind".

I went and sat next to him on the bed.
I trust him, once I tell him I can't take it back.
"I-I can't keep going on with this. I let people in my life. I instantly regret it. All I've ever wanted is for someone to stay. I'm.....broken. My father took away my heart. My 'mother' presented me as a prostitute to other men.

All I've ever wanted is a friend. Someone to listen to my stories. To be there for me. Hunter....h-he's someone with issues. And...You know I can't deal with this. When you first came here...honestly I wanted you gone. But then I actually enjoyed your company.
Your a really great friend".

I finally let it out. He kept a small smile on his face and stretched his arms out to hug me.
I hugged him back and we stayed like that for a few minutes.

"I should go".
I say getting up, but he grabs my arm and brings me closer to him.
His face was really close and our bodies were practically touching.

"I've really. Really, wanted to do this".
He said biting his lip.

Nooooo.
"San-".
Before I could finish he smashed his lips on mine.

Woah woah.
I pushed his chest making him go back. He looked at me confused.
"No. I-I'm with Hunter....fuck".

He knotted his brows. "I just heard you fighting".
He said getting close again.
"No. Sanchez, look whatever you feel for me I-it can't happen. I'm sorry I shouldn't have came. I'll see you tomorrow".
I quickly opened the door and walked out. I heard him say my name but I ignored him.

Now I feel bad.

I went back into my room collapsing on my bed.

I can't sleep alone.
Why am I doing this.
I groaned and got out of my bed leaving the room.

Where is he.
I searched some of the rooms but he wasn't there. I got into the kitchen and smelt smoke.
I went towards the small balcony and there he stood. Shirtless smoking. Wow. His back is so...muscular.

I went closer to him standing right next to him looking straight at the view. There was a nice breeze, the sky was beautiful. Perfect.

He slowly turned his head to look at me, then looked back straight blowing the smoke out.

"I didn't know you smoked".
I say looking at him.
"I only smoke when I'm stressed".
He said still not looking at me.

I'm obviously not going to forgive him.....yet.
"Veronica. I don't deserve you. I don't even know how your still talking to me. I abused you. Put my hands on you".
He said looking at me confused.

I put my hands around his neck looking at him straight in his eyes.

"Hunter. There is a difference between someone enjoying it and someone who feels broken after. You are not like this. You got angry and you had every right to be angry. I had the book, I kept it from you.
But don't ever, and I mean ever think that I would use that book against you. In fact you can have it and destroy it. Burn it whatever.

If it means that you'll be happy, then take it".

He smiled and kissed me before we both went up to bed.