I'm Sorry.

Chapter 7

Finally the summer holidays! I couldn't wait to get my phone back and just relax for 6 weeks. When my dad handed over my phone I gave him a smile and quickly checked my messages.

" Someones popular." My dad said glancing over at my lock screen.

I had 7 missed calls from Harry and 12 texts from him. I have never felt so wanted in my life. It was great but nerve racking, I wonder what the texts said. I checked them within seconds.

Harry: Hey, do you want to chat? X

YOU MISSED A CALL FROM 'Harry <3'

YOU MISSED A CALL FROM 'Harry <3'

Harry: Are you busy? X

Harry: I'll call back in a few hours, I have to do a T.V interview. X

Harry: In the studio I'll call soon. X

YOU MISSED A CALL FROM 'Harry <3'

YOU MISSED A CALL FROM 'Harry <3'

Harry: It was actually a good interview, one of the questions was if I had a girlfriend yet. X

Harry: Guess what I said? X

Harry: I said I had a girlfriend in mind, it just rested on if she likes me back. X

YOU MISSED A CALL FROM 'Harry <3'

Harry: The girl I had in mind is you Anna. X

Harry: Do you like me back? You don't have to, I'll understand. X

YOU MISSED A CALL FROM 'Harry <3''

Harry: Anna? You okay babe? X

Harry: I'll let you call me back when your ready okay? X

Harry: I'll be waiting, it's okay if you don't want to get into a relationship, it's a big ask. X

YOU MISSED A CALL FROM 'Harry <3'

Sugar, Honey, Ice, Tea. Harry Styles just asked me out. I was ready to say yes, but I remembered what my dad said about being famous it could corrupt you. I admired Eleanor, Louis girlfriend, Sophia, Liam's girlfriend and Perrie, Zayns fiancé. For me to be with them would be amazing but what if they don't like me, I mean I am really young compared to them so they may treat me like the baby of the group. I just wanted to be their friend so badly! I looked up to Eleanor the most because she has to deal with a lot of hate from fans because some fans believe Harry and Louis are in a secret relationship together and Eleanor was a cover up or as they like to call her a 'beard'.

I really don't know what to do, I wouldn't be able to deal with all the hate. I had seen it and it was horrible. I fear it may drive me to suicide. Some of the fans that believe they are in a secret relationship are actually nice, even though I don't believe what they believe, which is fine and I respect them.

I could ask Eleanor for help? She would think I'm dippy because I'm young and impressionable. Here come these thoughts again! I have a lot of self doubt and it's really bad, I don't think I'm ready for a relationship. Im 16 and not ready for a relationship? That is stupid, if Harry loves, likes me, and I love him what's stopping us? Oh yeah, just the whole Directioner fandom. I really don't balme them though, millions of girls want to be the one Harry chooses and stupid toady, fog horn me gets him.

My life won't be the same when I'm with Harry though, it will all be on camera and my secrets will be revealed. I don't have big secrets so I'm okay, I guess.

Me: Wow, Harry I'm flattered it's just I think that people would try to tear us apart. X

Harry: Hey! I thought you might say that, I think we would have a strong relationship and nothing would come between us we would be indestructible you and I. X

Me: Do you really think we could last? X

I was really digging deep into him I didn't want to say yes and then be disappointed later. I have had to many disappointments in my life, too many let downs aswell.

*'Harry <3' sent a voice message*

Harry: #You and I, we don't wanna be like them, we can make it till the end, nothing can come between You and I, not even the gods above, can separate the two of us, ooh You and I.#

His voice was beautiful, heavenly. I loved that song and I loved him. It sounded like he really meant it with each note he sung. I knew in my heart that this would work.

Me: I love you Harry Styles! X

Harry: I love you Anna!;)x

Harry: Do you want to meet up? Stay round mine?X

Me: I think we live too far away to meet up. X

Harry: Its a journey I'm willing to take! Anything for you Anna, I'll need your address. X

Even though I had established that this was the real Harry Styles I still felt nervous giving him my address. He said he lives in London but has a house in Cheshire and another one that belonged to his mum and step dad. I told my mum and dad that I would be going out tomorrow and that I would be having a sleepover. The conversation was quite something.

" I'll be out tomorrow, I won't be back until Monday because it's a sleepover." I said. I don't know why I said 'sleepover' it sounded childish but thats how my parents treated me, even though I was 16 going on 17.

" Whose house are you staying round?" Mum replied.

" Harry Styles' house, in Cheshire." I answered twiddling my thumbs.

" Haha, is that a wish or something? So your staying around Eleeyse's house then. Tell her mum I said thanks for the flowers." Mum said glancing up from her book.

I nodded and backed up slowly even though I was actually staying with Harry, then ran up to my room and packed a small holdall with clothes, shoes, wash kits and hair and makeup packs. I didn't know what I was letting myself in for, so I packed the most expensive items from each of the categories to take with me. I felt really guilty for lying to my mum, but she wouldn't find out and she wouldn't get mad...would she?