I'm Sorry.

Chapter 23

So that happened.

It wasn't as scary as I thought it was going to be, being my first time and that. He was so gentle and asked me if I was okay every few minutes.

We just lay on the bed half asleep and I had my head on his chest and my hand over his lower abs.

" Are you tired?" Harry said rubbing my arm.

" A little. Tiring work though isn't it." I said making Harry chuckle. He kissed the top of my head then sat up knocking me off his chest playfully. He stood up next to the bed and I moved my eyes away from him and threw him his pants.

" I like Commando thanks." He said and threw the pants back at me.

" Fine." I said and wrapped the bed sheet around me and walked out the room and into where I was staying.

" It's called a BED-sheet for a reason babe. It stays on the bed." Harry called over the landing.

I rolled my eyes and continued into my room where I slipped on my Pyjamas as it was quite late and walked out to be met by Harry in the doorway.

" Password." Harry said grabbing my waist.

" Put some pants on." I said and kissed him them threw the bed sheet in his face. He let me past then threw the bed sheet into his room and I made my way down the stairs.

" Wrong!" He shouted to me.

" I don't give a-" I began.

" Ffff-unky monkey?" Harry interrupted appearing at the top of the stairs.

I laughed and walked slowly into sitting room and switched the Telly on.

It took me a while to get use to his remote but I got the gist of it. I watched Come Dine With Me, I don't know why I'm just hooked on that show.

"BOO!" Harry said jumping onto the sofa, with pyjamas on, the surprise got the better of me so I fell off the sofa.

" That's not funny!" I said pulling myself of the floor and back onto the sofa.

" I'm sorry but it was." Harry replied sitting down next to me. He was wearing his pyjamas and fluffy slippers which he rubbed next to my feet, tickling them a little.

We had both decided that dinner would be a peace of fruit, we didn't feel that hungry so we sat and ate a banana on the sofa.

I got up to out the peels in the bin and he pulled me down over his lap and kissed me.

" You taste like banana." I said sitting up.

" So do you." Harry replied helping me up with a smile.

I walked over to the bin and put the peels inside. I noticed a piece of paper underneath the peels.

" I'm going to change the channel." Harry said staring at the Television.

" Yeah, okay." I said digging in the bin. I pulled out the paper which had writing on it and put it on the worktop and washed my hands in the sink then went back over to it.

A song for Anna by Harry.

Tell me you love me

Tell me you need me

Tell me you can't live without me

Because that's how I feel

Tell me you rely on me

Tell me you wait for me

Because that's in the deal of love

That's a short, but nevertheless, beautiful song. The bottom of the paper seemed to be ripped off, I could see there had been writing underneath that verse that had been torn off and I didn't know where it was. I quickly gave another glance into the bin and there was no other paper hidden.

" What are you doing?" Harry said looking over to sofa at me.

" Pushing the..the...rubbish inside the bin...more. To create space for more rubbish." I said stammering at points and concealing the note in my pyjama pocket out of his view.

" Right, okay. I can do that." He said starting to stand up.

" No, no, it's fine honestly I'm a big girl." I said putting out my arm gesturing for him to sit back down.

I don't know why I had all of a sudden become so protective over this piece of paper. Maybe it was because it was for me? Maybe it was for a different Anna? Even so, why was it in the bin? They were good lyrics.

" I just need to get something from my room." I said edging towards the stairs.

" I'll get it for you, what is it?" Harry replied looking over to me.

" Harry! Just let me do things on my own." I said smiling at him before he turned round to watch the television again.

I walked over to the stairs and jogged up them then headed straight for Harry's Bedroom. I looked back every few second to see if he had followed me but he hadn't. I was determined to find the other bit of paper that was torn off, I wanted to find out what it said. I began looking in his draws, I know it's very rude and very inappropriate but I needed answers. I looked inside a draw that had paper everywhere, it was some sort of Lyric Draw so I began searching inside frantically.

There were whole bits of paper and slits of paper with writing on them, but I couldn't find one that looked as if it had been ripped from another piece. I got out the paper from the bin and looked over the style of the verse then I looked back inside the draw to find something along that style.

Nothing.

I closed the draw up and exited the room slowly and stealthily incase Harry was around but he wasn't. I walked into my room and grabbed my phone to make it look as if I went to get that, then went back down to Harry.

" I got it." I said waving my phone in the air as he turned around to see me.

He rolled his eyes and smiled then gestured for me to come back to the sofa with him. I made sure the note was deeply inside my pocket then made my way over. I jumped over the back of the sofa and looked at the screen, he was watching Celebrity Juice. I loved that show, I didn't know it was on or I would have watched that instead of Come Dine With Me.

I snuggled up close to him and he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me in close to him. I had my head of the side of his chest and I could hear him breathing in and out.

Then, I fell fast asleep.