I'm Sorry.

Chapter 29

I honestly felt really bad for Harry. Just as he tried to get his life settled down I came in and ruined it.
I got up off Harry's bed and walked out the door and into where I was staying. I went over to my bed and picked up my holdall and then proceeded in packing my things. Tears were still flying down my face and I broke down several times before regaining composure again. I walked into the en suit and washed my face as my makeup was running. I looked into the mirror and my face looked withered. I'd never been in such a state like this before. I was a colossal mess.
I bet Harry feels like trash because in theory I chose my mum over him. In the end my mum will always win. She gave life to me, raised me and she has put up with me all my life. I hope that doesn't sound mean at all, I'm not saying this in a horrible way I'm just saying what most people are afraid to say.
My holdall was packed, all I needed to do now Is spend one more night with Harry. I would need to ask him to take me to the station because I couldn't drive but I knew he wouldn't agree, however I still had to try and ask him.

I made my way down the stairs with the holdall and placed it on the hallway table ready to go. Harry was stood outside in the garden and I was walking towards him in slow, cautious steps.
I opened the sliding glass door and then with heart in my hands asked him.

" I'm going to need someone to take me to the station tomorrow. Could you possibly take me?"

He shrugged then turned around and said " I don't know."

" Okay...could you possibly let me know before tomorrow?" I said playing with my hands.

He shrugged again.

" I know you're upset Harry but this doesn't mean its the end." I said moving closer to him.

" Yes it does Anna. Your mum doesn't like me and she doesn't want you anywhere near me. You heard her! Your living MY world when you should be living yours." He said with a tear falling off his chin.

" Harry please-"

" No Anna, it's for the best. I don't want to be the one to take you back because it would feel as if I was responsible for letting you go and I don't want to have that feeling." He insisted.

" She's my mother Harry! I'm sorry but I will choose her over anyone!" I said louder than expected.

He looked stunned, appalled even. He turned around and then back again running his hands through his hair.

" You would choose Anne over me wouldn't you?" I asked looking deep into his eyes.

He paused for a few seconds then gently nodded and bowed his head.

" That's fine that you would choose your mum over me. Your mum gave birth to you, raised you and cared for you as did mine. It's only natural that we would choose them over each other." I replied taking his hands.

" I don't want you to think that I don't love you because I said I would choose my mum over you..." He said pulling me into a hug.

" The feelings mutual." I returned with my head on his chest and hands wrapped around him.

" Are you still going to go?" He asked.

" I have to." I replied in which Harry let go of me, took a step back and shook his head then walked back into the house.

I took that whole conversation as a let down. I thought Harry would see the sense that I had to do what mum said. I can't let her down when all she wants to do is protect me. I had no choice but to ask the only other person I knew in Cheshire to help me get to the station. Rachel.

I walked inside and blanked Harry who was on the sofa and looked in my holdall for my purse with my phone inside and I called up Rachel.

" Hey Rachel it's me, Anna. I was wondering if you could possibly drive me down to the train station tomorrow morning?" I asked in a soft tone.

" Um, yeah sure. I don't see why not. I'll get my big sister Cassie to drive us. I'll come along too. What time were you thinking of us collecting you?" She answered.

" Around 9-ish." I said looking up to the clock on the wall.

" Okay! Text me your address and I'll see you then!" She replied.

If she only knew the reason why I was leaving, I bet she wouldn't be so upbeat and happy.
So my travel, times and baggage were sorted, all I needed was to wait for tomorrow to arrive.