Just For You.. (Seventeen X Non-Binary Reader)

Chapter 21

A week has passed since that day. The mood in the group has changed, Seventeen is mostly busy preparing things for new concerts and albums. Things are going fine now, Hansol is alright being around me and we sometimes have a small chat but we just try to keep busy on our own life. Christian and Seungcheol are doing fine as well as long as their not alone with each other and not really talking to each other. Seungcheol has his anger in control he is still sad and quite broken but he has picked up his status as oldest and leader of the group and he is actually really nice to me. When Seungcheol and Christian had this fight going on I thought Seungcheol would hate me because I'm always on Christian's side but he doesn't, he understand that I can't help it that it didn't worked out the way he wanted. Christian doesn't really like it when I spend time with Seungcheol but he isn't making a problem out of it. I hanged a lot around Minghao, Jisoo, Chan and Wonwoo what surprised me at first, we didn't have a great start but we get along so good. Christian got close with BooSeokSoon, feat Junhui and Mingyu that is. Everyone is quite on their own lately as well, while eating dinner not much is said. Looking around at the sad atmosphere in the room was somehow depressing. Guilty feelings filled up my body, I put my face mask and cap on as I look at Minghao who was standing next to me. I had to leave this depressing home for a little, it was time for my check up at the hospital and Minghao was coming with me.

We had to wait quite some time before the doctor came to pick us up. I do feel quite nervous for the check-up I have no idea what to expect, Minghao winks at me as some sort of comfort. We get into the doctors office and take off our face masks and sit down. "so you brought your boyfriends this time sweet" oh no not again. Both us started saying no. "GREAT" the doctor started. "please undress to your underwear we need your weight and some body check ups and after that you can dress on and I will send you upstairs for a blood test." My mouth fell open and I looked at the doctor in disbelieve. Did he want me to be in my underwear right now? in front of Minghao?! "what you must have seen each other in underwear right?" the doctor answers as he turns around in his chair to prepare some things. "we're not!" "he isn't my boyfriend" "ah yes, yes, yes that's what they all say" Minghao looks with disgust to the doctor as I feel my cheeks heat up. "j-just do it I won't look" Minghao says nervous and annoyed and he really turns away. I'm so ashamed of my own body I turn away from Minghao like he turned away from me. And I undress till I'm in my underwear feeling really uncomfortable. My face is tomato red. Minghao is still turned away covering his eyes wishing he wasn't here. The doctor takess a look at my body and checks it all, my chest is still taped in and that's a spot that really hurts. My weight was alright, just like always. "did you notice any weird spots?" the doctor suddenly asks Minghao who accidentally looks up and quickly looks away again. "uhm no..." he answers quite shy. I dress up again and we go upstairs so they can get my blood. Nothing really is said, we walk in and I act all tough thinking I can do that. The nurse smiles at me and shows me the needle. "MINGHAO LOOK AT THAT" I almost forgot how terrified I am of needles. Minghao laughs "need me to hold your hand?" I blush slightly I didn't want to make this visit more awkward for him. "that's a yes come on" he takes me along and holds my hand as the nurse gets my blood. It hurts and I hate it so much I squeeze Minghao's hand, who gently smiles and actually finds it humour that I'm so afraid of one tiny needle. Boy what am I glad that we finally can go home again.

We're on our way back thank god. I wonder how I even survived this all. the view from the car is beautiful and it is relaxing for my mind. The beautiful view of nature together with the clear blue sky. I close my eyes for a little and look at Minghao who is next to me he stares outside as well, I wish I could tell what was going on in his mind. "M-Minghao?" I stutter partly, the boy turns his head to me with a questionable look on his face. "what is it?" he says softly. Thought Minghao could be quite savage he was a really sweet boy with a pure heart, Until now he has always taken good care of me. "thank you, for coming with me, If I knew it would be like this I wouldn't let you come along, I'm sorry" Minghao smiles at my comment " you shouldn't have gone trough everything on your own and it was no problem really" I smile I'm glad he really doesn't seem to mind. I turn my head back to the window while Minghao still keeps looking at me. "[y/n]?" Minghao's voice sounds soft. I turn back to him and see how the boy got a little shy, his cheeks get a soft pinkish colour. "d-do you like someone?" "EH?!" oh please no not another one the atmosphere is already shit because of me. "w-why?" "just wondering okay" the boy looked away from me with a nervous behaviour. "I-I honestly don't know if I like someone or not" I tell him in a very soft voice. I look at him he still looks nervous "so you?" I ask curious about it and also checking to not have the same accident as with Hansol. The boy sighed "I do" he says softly. "but I don't think the other person will ever like me" I looked at him somehow worried I wanted him to be happy he deserves it so bad but I was also quite scared that he would like me. "you can't tell this to anyone you are the first I tell this to because I trust you okay" I nod as I sit up straight in my chair paying full attention, was Minghao going to tell me who he liked? There was a little awkward silence. "I-I-I have liked HIM for a quite a while now and I'm so damn afraid to admit it" "him? That's cute.. but who is this lucky man?" "who do you call lucky?" "You're a sweet caring person Minghao and so funny from time to time you savage, whoever he is he should be glad that he is liked by such an amazing person as you are" Minghao smiles shyly "aaah that's not true" he says quickly to avoid the compliment. "anyway please don't tell anyone that I like Junhui okay?" my mouth falls open and I start to smile "so cute.. Jun really?" "DON'T TELL anyone okay?!" "no, no, no I wish you the best of luck I like it a lot I smile a lot when we finally arrive at the dorm.