I was dared to love you

Chapter 5

I was bored, so horribly bored.
It was the day after arriving, and usually these were my favourite times. It took me the two days we had off before classes go get used to the school again, finding my way around each revolving staircase, but today was different. Slytherins seemed to think I'd suddenly turned evil and tried to get me involved in their macabre plans, gryffindor's thought I had hurt one of their own, and ravenclaw and hufflepuff's remained frustratingly on james' side, despite lily trying to set the record straight.
I was banished from the gryffindor common room, and lily was banished from slytherin which was such a shame since the slytherin common room was always freezing, being in the dungeons and all. I felt like a prisoner.
A prisoner with quite literally no friends anymore.
I sighed, wrapping my pastel pink hoodie around my shoulders as I made my way out of the slytherin common room and up to the main floor of the school where the great hall was, hoping for a little bit of socialisation. Maybe lily would be there and we could spend a few hours together instead of being constantly thwarted by her legion of white knights that saw me as nothing more than her tormentor.
Honestly it was both funny and annoying as fuck. The stuff they said when they saw me coming was something you could read out of Shakespeare play.
I'd taken to mocking them, making both lily and myself laugh and collapse on top of eachother whenever I said something particularly funny, but she always felt bad about embarrassing her wannabe boyfriends and thanked them which made them think she wanted more protection. There wasn't really a duo that I could compare us too more than lucy and Mina, from bram stoker's novel: Dracula.
Lucy was obviously lily. She was the apple of everyone's eye, too pure and had too many boyfriends.
I was Mina. Less well liked but admired for her intellect and beauty mostly and often dragged into trouble by Lucy's antics.
I wasn't focusing on where I was looking, too wrapped up in my own delightful daydreams to notice Sirius walking down the hallway, humming along to an ABBA song that I can only assume was his favourite song.
Hint: I later found out that his favourite ABBA song was voulez-vous, not lay all your love on me, which is ironic seeing as lay all your love on me was the song that literally describes our eventually Romantic relationship.

Anyway, we bumped into eachother, and Sirius got ready to yell before seeing who it was.

"Skylar-"

Shit here it came. I had to make a run for it.

"Sirius." I greeted with a fake smile.
"What a pleasure. Sorry but I have a certain ginger to meet. Good day!"
And with that I ran off, Sirius yelling after me to come back, that he just wanted to speak to me.
I knew exactly what he wanted to speak about, that's why I ran.

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I eventually found lily, sat silently reading in a patch of grass with the sun shining over her, making her look like an angelic being.
She was nearly at the end of her novel, but the minute she saw me she grinned widely and urgently patted the patch of grass beside her.

"Skylar! I missed you."

I couldn't help but snort in slight arrogance.

"Yeah? Thanks for coming to look for me."

Lily frowned and pressed a kiss to my cheek, laying her head on my shoulder and cuddling up to me.

"You know I would've if Potter wasn't bubblewrapping me, Sky...I really have missed you."

God I couldn't resit that face. She was my best friend, and it was so hard to stay mad at her. I rode my eyebrows and put my arm around her protectively, rubbing my cheek to the top of her head for a moment before dropping my arm from around her shoulders and beginning to pick daisies from the grass.

"I guess James has been either badmouthing me or apologising profusely to you to get you back on his side?"

Lily chuckled.

"You read my mind. That's exactly what he's been doing. But I'm not going to let him butter me up so easily this time. He had no right to yell at you like that. It was inconsiderate-"

"Hah! Inconsiderate? Lily, everything he does is inconsiderate, and I can think of far better words to use. He made me look as evil as...well a death eater!"

Lily got an uncomfortable look on her face. Mentioning death eaters was taboo at the moment because of a recently wave of paranoia among the people of the Wizarding community, but I didn't pay much attention to it. Looking back from where I currently am in my life, I should've.

I looked at her with fire in my eyes and a grimace starting to form on my face. She couldn't say a bad word about him. Everything always had an excuse. I knew where I stood.
Standing up, I wiped the daisy chain off my lap and flicked my hair from my eyes, grabbing my bag and wand.

"For god's sake lily! Why do you have to be so...weak when it comes to him? You're such a strong person, I should know that because we've been friends since the first year, but suddenly you can't protect your best friend because you fancy a lad? I've protected you so many times!"
I didn't mean to get mad but everything was starting to pile up inside of me. Anxiety of Sirius revealing my secret, anger at lily and James...I knew soon that if I didn't get away I'd do something I regret.

So that's exactly what I did. I got up, and walked away, angry and shivering with frustration.