Junior Year

Boy Drama - November 25th, 2018

Sunday

Hey guys, I took a little break from writing for Thanksgiving but I am back and man did some crazy stuff happen on my week off. Tomorrow we have to go back to school and I am not pumped. School sucks and going there literally makes me want to die but oh well. I have a math test Tuesday and I literally don't even remember what it's about. 

On another note I was like starting to get really paranoid about using people's real names in my story because like what if they find this and read this and then get pissed because I exposed them in my not so private life journal but you know oh well, if they were so worried about being exposed maybe that should not have done what they were worried about in the first place.

So last Tuesday Ryan snapped me. Ryan is in my study hall and I guess we are friends, I mean I don't really know, he's dating this girl named Hanna. Not gonna lie she's kinda a bitch. So Ryan has kinda been flirty all year but I was like "no Kim he's just being nice, not every guy who is nice is flirting (which is a lie, guys are only nice if they like you)" but anyways he snapchatted me and it was weird because we have never snapped before. We talked for a little and then he was like "so do you send pics" and I was like "ummm maybe to a guy who's not dating a girl who already doesn't like me" and he goes "oh right yeah wouldn't want to f*ck up their relationship" and then we snapped a little more and later in the week he blocked me on snap. Super weird right. I kinda thought I should tell Hanna but then I was like no better not. We don't need to give her any more reasons to be mad at me. 

Now I told you guys a little bit about Ian last week and I am still talking to him but I swear it is just getting worse. I'm not even sure if I actually like him and he is kinda an asshole. I left him on read a few times but I always end up snapping him back once he snaps me again. It's a rough life. My friend Jenny doesn't like Ian and she doesn't want me talking to him. She is probably right but I don't know. He's cute and sometimes he calls me babe and I'm such a sucker for that I just get roped back in again.

Ok the next part of boy drama I have is with his guy named Spencer. Spencer is probably the nicest boy snapping me right now but I'm just not attracted to him at all. And I feel bad because he tells me he likes me all the time but I just don't like him.

And lastly as I promised, Peter, remember my best friend, yeah he's the bad boy I have a crush on, he snapped me this week. We were supposed to hang out last Tuesday morning but on his way to pick me up his car started flipping out and he can't legally drive people yet so if it broke down while I was with him he would have lost his license. I told him to go home and we could hang out some other time. Wednesday night Peter snapped me and told me he made the Varsity basket ball team. It was really cute how happy he was and I was super happy that he wanted to make me proud. 

Peter and I have always had a kind of flirty best friend relationship. This summer we had a little fling but I don't think he knows how much I really still like him. Peter knows everything about me and I know everything about him. I'm so comfortable around him and sometimes I feel like I should just tell him how much I really like him but I don't want to lose my best friend because he might not feel the same way and then things would just be weird. I went to Peter's first basket ball game last night and watching him play made me so worried. I want him to do good and I don't want him to get hurt. My bestie Nikki thinks it's cute how much I care about him but I just wish he cared about me too.