baby | baekhyun [1] ✔

38 휘

Fuckboy

I failed to move on from you. You were my first time for so many things; first kiss, first date, first sex, first man.

But why the heck that you ruined my life in a blink of an eye?

I trusted you enough to give you my V card with zero hesitation and you were foolish enough to take me for granted. Such a dick move you got there aye?

Being a newborn bitch I was, I decided to ditch my work.
I met no one outside of my house; I didn't even leave my house for once.
I ate once a day; perhaps a spoon or two of cereals.

Thank God that my savings in my bank accounts were more than enough to keep my life oriented for one or two years. I didn't give any damn about anyone nor anything. It was time for me, myself and I.

I let the stormed which was caused by you passed by like an empty episode in my life. Yeah, from time to time your scent and touches could be what I was reminded of. You left a huge impact in my history. Yet, I acted like I didn't care.

Practically I was lying to myself. I still love you. I still need you. I still adore you. But I don't want you. I don't want to be with you. It's complicated isn't it? 

Each time that I had the urge to meet and beg for you to take me back, I would look at my own reflection in the mirror and whispered to myself, "The idea of loving someone so dearly may sounds magical, Park Chaeyoung. But doing that to someone toxic like Byun Baekhyun isn't the best choice."

You're a toxic.
Well.. now I think so do I.