Random Thoughts

For you

And while I was laying on the ground,

Watching my life crumbling down,

I finally understood.

I understood why I held on all this time.

I understood why I refused the easy option.

You.

You are the reason.

You were always there to remind me that I couldn't lose this fight.

You were always there to give me more and more reasons to stay.

You were there to bring some light in the dark of my life.

Truth is the only think I was more scared of than losing myself was losing you.

I can handle loosing myself.

I can handle the pain, the guilt, the panic, the sadness.

I can handle being broken.

I can handle losing everything if I have you.

I know it sounds "cliché".

I know it sounds so fucking cheesy.

But this is the truth.

You saved me.

You don't even know it.

You didn't notice it, but you saved me in so many ways.

Every smile, every laugh, every talk, every moment we spent together saved me.

All these moments reminded me that I had reasons to stay alive.

I can't just leave and let go of everything that I get to live because of you.

So I fight.

God this is hard.

But I keep fighting.

I won't give up.

I'll fight for all of these moments.

I'll fight for the late night talk in the kitchen.

I'll fight for the hours laughing way to loud.

I'll fight for these hours playing stupid games.

I'll fight for the meals together.

I'll fight for the jokes.

I'll fight for the serious talk.

I'll fight for the warm hugs.

I'll fight for these hours making fun of each other.

I'll fight for the confort I find in you.

I'll fight for the experiences we make.

I'll fight for all these days we had to deal with our responsibility after a 2hours night.

I'll fight for our last minute plans.

I'll fight for our fails.

I'll fight for our success.

I'll fight for our debates.

I'll fight for our weird ideas.

I'll fight for these hours laying on a couch, doing absolutely nothing.

I'll fight for the crazy car rides.

I'll fight for the unplanned trips.

I'll fight for the movie nights.

I'll fight for the tea times.

I'll fight for the gossiping.

I'll fight for all of it.

I'll fight for your friendship.

I'll fight for you, my family.

I might feel weak sometimes, but I promise I won't let go.

What we have, this is something worth fighting for.

Thank you.

Thank you for being the reason why I'm still alive.