Random Thoughts

Change

Change is scary.

Like really scary.

Somehow you ended up in a good place, feeling finally comfortable and that's when change comeback.

Once you get used to a change in your life, a new one comes out.

It's like it wasn't kay for you to just feel okay in your own life.

Change is scary.

It comes out from nowhere and challenge your comfort.

Life is constant changes, so I should probably be used to it by now.

But I'm not.

I don't think I ever will.

How could you possibly get used to watch people come and go ?

Sometimes I feel like everyone is okay with changes.

Everyone but me.

How am I supposed to let people in if I already know that they're going to leave ?

What's the point ?

Growing up isn't as fun as I though it would be.

This is a mess. 

This is pain.

This is fears.

A lot of fears.

Growing up is learning to face changes, learning to take the best of them.

I still can't do that.

I'm still afraid of every little change in my life.

But maybe that's also what growing up is about.

Maybe, maybe it's also about accepting your fears and your pains.

Maybe growing up is about accepting that life doesn't always go your way, but that's okay.

Maybe growing up is learning that being afraid or sad or mad is okay.

Maybe growing up isn't about solving everything but just accepting how you feel and being able to express it.

But maybe it's not.

Maybe I'm completely wrong.

What I'm sure about is that growing up isn't easy.

Facing changes neither.

But I'll survive this.

So will you.

Because we are stronger that we think and life has so much more beautiful things in store for us.

I guess all we have to do is hold on and open our eyes and mind to whatever is coming next.

Because no matter how scary it is, I bet it will be beautiful.