( I really love this chapter ) ✧ IN WHICH , you learn to be the happiest you can be in a relationship sometimes you have to let the other person go .
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DISCLAIMER: HI TO ALL MY NEW / OLD READERS :)! , THIS BOOK IS OLD AND AS IM RE-READING IT PRETTY CRINGY
PLEASE KNOW THAT I DONT WRITE LIKE THIS TODAY
AND EVENTUALLY I WILL FIX WHAT I DONT LIKE
ANYWAYS WITH THAT BEING SAID ENJOY!
"HOW much longer do you plan on ignoring me today huh ? " you looked at your mid-height boyfriend as he flicked the pad over his beloved yellow lighter multiple of times .
your bedroom was dim- with gentle soft lighting . jahseh had just finished his last show for the next couple months , and this argument began because while he was on stage he ignored you as if you didn't exist .
but as for all the hoes , stokeley brought- got more attention than you ever gotten those few days , and sadly the crowd took notice . leaving you feeling embarrassed because the last time this happened you fought a couple of them ,
which lead jahseh's shows being cancelled for months at a time because he couldn't get any bookings .
but the reason you two argued like cats and dogs was stupid although they got all up on him , he didn't lay a hand on them , just a few over heard sensual whispers here and there.
you loved jahseh and you knew he loved you even more but for the past couple months after the whole " honey moon " phase of a typical relationship , you two do nothing but argue - makeup , repeat
" jahseh please not today , I'm tired as hell and it's almost three in the morning " he kissed his teeth loudly and gave you a hard glance .
he was sitting in the black fold up chair in your room sitting lowly like he was gonna fall out the seat , he fumbled with the rim of his white hat with your name in cursive on the middle of it .
" okay and what the fuck is your point ? " he spat harshly as you put a pillow over your head " jahseh dwayne ricardo onfroy let me sleep . "
" I'll let you sleep if that's what you want " you listened as he got up from the chair , sitting back down onto the floor and the smell of cigarette smoke filled the room .
" dammit jah take that outside " you felt the pillow roughly removed from your hands as you looked up to jahseh, he had a pissed look on his face with a cigarette between his broken fingers .
" y/n I can't do this shit anymore! , I'm tired we argue all day and night it's just reminding me of- " you sat up against the headboard .
" don't you dare compare me to that bitch " you pushed him in his chest , he crushed the cigarette into his fist ignoring the fact he gave his self a burn mark between his palm .
he placed his head onto your shoulder and turned his head into the crook of your neck , his breathing became slower as you both came into a calm state . " y/n " he mumbled onto your skin " we have to let each other go. "
normally you two would have continued arguing until the sun came up but a wave of matureness , came upon both of you . jahseh always talked about changing his ways and you figured this was his first step , despite all the anger he tends to build up inside .
this was a different side of him , a more gentle side you rarely get to see , under his tough persona you knew jahseh wouldn't stay this way forever, your both young as hell he just hasn't matured fully yet .
you ran your freshly done acrylics gently through his now fully exposed short black hair " I love you to death but we can't keep arguing over dumb shit like this " he said now in a calmer yet shaky-voice
you felt small tears run down your shoulder as he silently cried with a few coughs , trying to not be visible until he looked up so you two were face- to face .
he pressed his forehead against yours as his broken heart tattoo seemed to be the only thing you could focus on " one day you'll see me changed as a whole new person and then we can start over , I just can't allow you to be with this form of myself "
you laughed through your tears as he smiled showing his gold grills " what ? " your placed your hand on his cheek .
" I just remember you saying whenever you become the person you wanna be , you wanna have a kid so you can show them how to do the same "
" hell yeah , but only with you " you jokingly rolled your eyes , " gekyume , is one interesting name for a boy "
you found yourself already crying harder than him as he lovingly kissed you against your lips " I love you y/n "
