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" I SPOKE TO THE DEVIL IN MIAMI AND TRAIN FOOD WAS MY TRAGIC OUTCOME "
IT , was nights like these where I missed jahseh the most as much as I tried to mask it with music I know deep down it hurts me every single fucking day
although we fought a lot because let's be real jahseh was selfish he couldn't stand the thought of me being close with anyone or anything but him
I just got home from doing our last show for this month, walking upstairs to my hotel room I realized the door was unlocked
" the fuck ? "
I slowly and cautiously opened the door ready to beat someone's ass but I noticed a familiar figure
" hell no , t-that's impossible "
he looked at me sitting against the headboard his dreads fell over his face and he looked sad almost uncomfortably sad
" jahseh? "
he looked shocked as he quickly jumped off the side of the bed roughly bumping into my chest hugging me tightly
" you can see me, you can actually s-see me "
jahseh cried he didn't even care how loud he was , he just sobbed loudly in my arms
" I didn't wanna go , I didn't wanna leave everyone i- I missed you so fucking much stokeley "
" shh jah it's okay, but how this doesn't make any sense "
" I can still see everyone stokeley they just can't see me , it's a living hell but I begged for one day just one day I can visit everyone "
" you begged who jahseh? "
he looked up at me with his eyes were bloodshot and puffy , his nose was beginning to turn red from how hard he was crying
" the person who got me into this in the first place "
" what the fuck jahseh! "
he let go of me sitting back down on the edge of the bed
" he promised me everything would be fine... again , look stokeley you can't blame me I had to see my son , I had to see jen I had to see my mama and-"
I sighed knowing something bad was gonna come out of this I accompanied him laying down on the bed as he moved his head on my chest
" how are they ?"
" who ?"
" the kids "
" they're distraught jahseh much as we try to help them I don't think they'll ever be the same, I've never see so many kids just look broken "
he looked up at the ceiling fumbling with his tatted fingers , his voice began to shake as if he was gonna cry again
" o-oh "
" I wish they understood that when they visit me behind that second door I'm there , I'm just locked up in a room with... , no way of escaping "
I grabbed his hand in an attempt to get him to calm down
" hey I just told you the bad part , you have the strongest kids ever they love you to the moon and bad I don't ever want you to think they're mad "
he smiled softly but it quickly fell as he got up towards the door
" it's time "
" w-what no you can't please don't go "
I heard my voice crack ad I ran after him grabbing his arm
" I'm sorry stokeley maybe I can convince him again one day but right now I have to pay my price "
he turned to me smiling as he opened the hotel room door , freeing from my grip
" I'll see you again, I don't know when but I will I love you"
" PROMISE ME! "
I yelled I didn't care how loud I was
" I-I PROMISE "
and with that he was gone , suddenly I heard banging on my door as I had my pillow over my head laying back down turning off the light
" stokeley you okay? , who were you talking to ?"
jared asked me curiously as I felt tears roll down my face and onto the pillow
" nobody j-just go back to bed okay? "
he shut the door walking back into the room next door
this is ugly I apologize, I could have done better thank you for 7k and 70k reads
