Dead And Alive

/side: i'd stay home/

I was asked a question: If you could go back in time and undo something, when and what would it be?

I loved that question. I've memorized the answer like the back of my hand. I have a lot of things I want to undo, and I already made a mistake, which led to ruining not just 7 lives. Now I had to bear 3 more ruined lives. But now I know.

If I could go back to the day we met, I'd stay home.

If I could go back, I'd never pass by the old train tracks. So I won't see you standing at the opposite side after the old train passed by.

I'd stay home, so I won't see you wearing the school uniform.

So I won't have to look for you in the school.

I won't ever love you.

When I first time I met you, I didn't think that you were the catalyst that's going to set everything in motion. I didn't know that you were the cause of the fall. But then again, everything goes to reset.

So does the memories.
I didn't know.
I didn't remember.
Repeat, repeat.

You were going to go, no matter what happened.
I ran out of ideas to save you.
I thought that if only I could give you a reason to live, then everything will be okay. That if I could love you, and show you how wonderful life is, it'll be okay for everyone.
You were going to go, no matter what happened.
And when you do, you'll take them with you.

But it all repeats the same bad ending.
Where do I keep going wrong?

Let's start again from the beginning.

I went back to the day I met you, and I stayed home.