Moving Mountains(Book two/Silver's Story)

Ch. 10: Small Boulders

A Week Later

-Steve's p.o.v.-

I was freaking out as I paced back and forth in the waiting room. He wouldn't let me back there to see her. He had the nerve to act like I was the villian and as much as I wanted to go off on him I was sure Silver wouldn't appreciate that. She loved her dad even though he was a royal classed asshole. He was a cocky son of a bitch and I swear I hadn't seen him shed one tear since he got her. He was calm and collected never once breaking his demeanor. Noel's dad immediately cried in relief not caring about the snot bubbles and he hugged Eric and I repeatedly thanking us.

"What are you still doing here?" growled a voice from behind me. I clenched my fists at my sides trying not to lose my cool.

"With all due respect sir, I'm waiting to see the girls. I've been worried about them for the past month and as much as I want to go and kill Joe for what he did, I know Silver needs me right now. So I'm staying." I spat.

"I AM HER FATHER SHE NEEDS NO ONE BUT ME! Besides for all I know you helped that boy take her."

"Yeah I helped and I took a bullet in the process just to cover my tracks and then when I found out she was only two blocks away I broke out into a sprint ripping my stitches in the process for a fourth time. None of this matter though because I'm not blood and you have to much self guilt to realize that." I said with as much sarcasm as possible. "I've been by her side since our junior year of high school. I had no idea what was going on, but every time she was sad I tried to cheer her up. When she cried I helped to wipe away her tears. When all she wanted to hear was her dad's voice that never came it was me getting her mind off of it. So call the security guards if you have too, but I'm not leaving until I can see her and know that she's okay." I snapped breathing heavily with my fist clenched at my sides. I hadn't mean to go off like that, but this was not the time to be fucking with me. Silver was all I had and I was scared that I was about to lose her.

"Then you'll be waiting a long time." he growled with narrowed eyes and we glared at each other. Was he really trying to size me up right now? This man really had no clue who he was dealing with.

"I have nothing better to do. What you don't realize is that I love you daughter and she is my everything. I would wait and lifetime and an eternity for her and there's not a damn thing you can do about it." I spoke calmly, but from the look on his face I could tell he wasn't going to back down.

"We'll see about that." and then he walked off. I groaned outloud as I tried to calm myself. I hated her dad already, but all I cared about was her. I had to deal with him if I wanted to see her. I turned to see Eric and Noel's dad hugging and they both were crying. I definitely underestimated the things Silver said about her dad. He was definitely worse than she let on.

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I watched her dad like a hulk and the moment he existed her room I snuck in. I told him I wasn't leaving until I seen that she was okay and I meant that. The moment my eyes landed on her sleeping figure I gasped as tears filled my eyes. She was unrecognizable. The entire right side of her face was swollen and bruised. I was headed to her side before I even realized my feet were moving.

"Damn Silver what did he do to you?" I whispered feeling the last bit of my walls coming down as tears slid down my cheeks. "Damn it Silver, I should've been there to protect you. I should've fought harder. Hell we should've taken you elsewhere besides that damn hotel. We should've done more. Baby I can't afford to lose you, but if you want me to keep my distance than I will. I don't know maybe your dad is right and I play a bigger part in all of this than I'm willing to admit.

I had a little spat with your father and even though I wanted to tell him how you felt I knew that you needed to be the one to tell me. I know that because my father came to see me while I was being held captive here and I would've hated if someone else had said everything I needed to. It's official that your dad hates me and even though I'm not to fond of him either right now I stand by what I said. He doesn't hate you Silver. He loves you more than life itself he just doesn't know how to show it since your mother died. I can get an idea of how he feels. Your mother had to be the love of his life and he had to let go her before he was ready too. When I woke up in the hospital and found out that you had been missing for a few days my heart dropped. A few days turned into a few weeks and then a month. I had no way to contact you. No idea where you were and all I could think about was you.

Even with my dad being here. Even with repeatedly getting stitched up because I tried to run so that I could find you. All I could think about was you. I needed to so that I wouldn't go crazy, but when we finally got your location and found you...damn it Silver...someone could've ripped my heart right out of my chest and I wouldn't have felt a thing. I thought I lost you forever. you weren't breathing. You scared me Silver and never once had I been that scared in my life before. So yes, I understand your dad, but that does not mean that I agree with him.

He should've been there for you more. He should've realized that you were going through something and needed him just as much as he needed you. He's not the only one. I should've realized that too. For me to claim that I love you and still not be able to see how much pain you were in makes me wonder if I ever truly loved you in the first place. How can I claim that you are my everything and I couldn't see the pain that you were in? Your father was right. I don't deserve you. I don't derserve to love you. I don't deserve for you to be in my life. I don't deserve any of the happy moments I've had with you. I don't deserve to be happy.

I never told you when my grandma died. I never told you how alone I was. How alone I felt. You were the only reason that I was able to smile just a little bit. There's so much I never told you and now I might not be able to. I love you Silver you. You know how much I really do love you, but you don't need the added stress that comes with me loving you. You don't need the added drama that is me Silver. I will be here until you wake up love, but then I have to leave. I know this is going to sound selfish, but I'm doing it as much for myself as I'm doing it for you. I can't allow you to be that crutch I'm clinging to anymore. I have to learn to live without you for awhile. To be strong without you so that I can be stronger for you and you need to learn to do the same. I love you Silver, but right now I'm no good for you. Do me a favor and give you dad a chance, okay?" I sniffled as I wiped the tears away from my eyes and place a simple chaste kiss against her lips. I would be here until I heard the words that she was alive or dead and then I would disappear for awhile. It was best for us both.