DNA

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"Fuck off Angel, I don't want you anymore, alright" he shouted

"*** please don't go, please baby" I said

"I don't love you anymore, fuck off" he shouted in a louder voice, he then walked off, leaving me alone in tears

I woke up, it was another nightmare but all of these nightmares are not the truth, you never said those exact words and you never shouted them, I can't bring myself to say how you really left me so my mind cre.ates nightmares of something that has happened but worser

I woke up gasping, with tears in my eyes, and my skin soaked in sweat, i looked to my left hoping you were there but all I saw was the moonlight peeking through my curtains, I heard a notification from my phone so I decided to look at it, hoping that it was you but it wasn't it was just telling me that Jay had posted a video on YouTube, I checked the time, 3am

I knew I wasn't going to sleep any time soon so I took my sound canceling headphones and I connected my phone to it, I decided to go on my Spotify and listen to 'hostage-billie Eillish'

I wanna be alone

Alone with you, does that make sense?

I wanna steal you soul

and hide you in my treasure chest

I don't know what to do

to do with your kiss on my neck

I don't want feels true

but this feels right so stay a sec

It 4am and you're sleeping while I'm crying, hoping to be in your arms again

At this point I'm already in tears, I decided to go through our texts to feel how good it was to talk with you but I cried even more because you promised to be there for me, you lied

And I'm crying in the worst way, in silence cus I don't wanna break the quietness in my room

I checked my phone few minutes later but in reality it was few hours later, it was 6am, so I decided to stand up and go to the balcony to watch the sunrise

I sat down and took in the breathtaking view, all sort of different colours where up in the sky, orange, red, yellow, a bit of pink and the blue that was in the sky

And at that moment I realized that I wasted too much time falling in love with you and now I'm wasting too much time trying to forget about you

And I'm sorry for being who I am

*Knock knock*

*Knock knock*

*Knock knock*

"Alright fucking hell I'm coming, wait a fucking second" I muttered under my breath, I stood up from where I was sitting and got inside my house closing the window door behind me and going down the stairs to open the door for whoever was there

"Hey Angel" he said while smiling

"Oh hey Mace" I said

"Oh, have you been crying?" He asked worried

"Uh no" I whispered while looking down at the floor trying not to catch his eyes

"That's bullshit ain't it?" He asked

"Uh ye" I whispered again..."come on in" I said

"Sure, uh alright" he said..."btw get ready cus we're gonna go somewhere" he then said

"Oh where are we going?" I asked

"We're gonna go out for a bit and then we're gonna go to a bar and get wasted out of our minds, come on this will get your mind off of him"

He was right, i think

"Alright wait here, make yourself at home, you can play some Fortnite and I'll go get ready" I said before quickly going up the stairs and in my room

"Take your time cus we've got a few hours before we have to go" he shouted down the stairs

I took a quick shower, once I got out I decided to put on my white and black hoodie with my leggings and the black vans you gave me, once my hair was dry I decided to straighten my hair, once I was finished I put on some concelear so that people wouldn't see the dark bags under my eyes, I then put on some mascara and once I was done getting ready I checked the time to see I took an hour and a half to get ready, my hair took so long to straighten so that's why

I then took my phone and some money and I headed down stairs to see that Mason had just won a round

"Well well well you're still the same cunt, always winning no matter what platform you're on" I said

"I used to play on PS4 not too long ago, I'm actually quite surprised that I was able to win a round" he said..."you ready?" He asked

"Yep, let's go cmon" I said

He nodded, turned off the PS4, I grabbed my house keys and we headed out

°thank you once again for deciding to ready my book°