- Or no? I mean I obviously can't marry you!
I bite my lips, bewildered. I must look like a lost puppy. How can it be so complicate to make a decision?
- Why not?
- I explained why!
- You doubt me.
- Of course! You might be under some strange spell now but it will wear off after some times.
Forth sigh heavily, his hand run in his hair. Then he turns to me.
- Then just live with me.
I froze, afraid.
Am I ready to live with someone? Plus it's not just anyone; it's the annoyingly perfect Forth Jaturapoom.
How can I keep upwith him?
Or what if he'splaying me?
Or what if he changes his mind after getting to know the real me?
"Breathe in and out, it's going to be alright honey" I hear my mother gentlevoice in my head. She used to calm me repeating this while patting myback. I was a fearful child back then, asking thousands of questions and doubting myself. This trait faded away as I had to become tougher. However, this man touches every aspect of me; even those I thought had disappeared.
I remember her advice and breathe slowly. I can't let confusion invade me.
- We can get married after a month living together, he continues.
- You can't be sure after one month!
How do you want to calm down with a man like him?
- I'm already sure Beam. How long do you need?
Yes I'm a coward when it comes to feelings. As I said before, to me marriage is a one time thing. I grew up looking at my parents. It wasn't alway seasy; I have memories of them arguing, though it never lasted. They were there for each other and showed their love with little things like a smile, a hug, a note...
After my parents death it was Pha and Kit with my grandmother's help who picked up every tiny piece of me and put it together. Then it was her who left me a few years later, following her daughter. Pha and Kit where there at that time too.
That's one of the reasons why we are so close; we've been present for each other through good and gloomy times. Pha's parents'divorce, Kit's accident... I don't let people in apart from them,it hurt too much. Even Nate and Mek are at a safe distance.I can't be abandoned, I won't handle it.
Nevertheless, Forth came in without my knowledge. I can't ignore him, I unconsciously opened to him. Will I be able to survive if he leaves me? I glance at my pale hand in his tanned and strong one, he makes me feel safe. He's worth the try.
- A year at least! I demand.
Should I have said two? It took Kit and Ming seven years to marry... Is it too fast? Argh I'm not an expert on relationships.
- 2 months, he retorts.
No way! It can't be enough...
- 6 months, I argue.
- 3 and I won't go higher.
- Deal!
Forth grin at me and round is arm on my shoulder making us sit closer.
I blink, realizing that I ended up agreeing. Again, I think I might be the craziest person here for always accepting such ideas.
How come I always have strange weddings plan? Usually people fell for each other, court, go on dates and marry. We got everything in the wrong order.
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