Hands on the piano. I carry them to my legs. I'm incapable to do it.
« Hey what's up ? Why are you crying ? »
I look at him.
I sigh and keep looking at my hands.
« -Do you need help ?
- Um... Yeah. But I don't know how you could help me.
- Is it about your song ? »
I want his help.
I open the piano and say yes. He seat next to me.
I can do it. His presence will help me. I just have to believe it.
I missed his touch. I still miss it.
How can I success ? This part is so hard. Even if I want to do it, I fail. As always.
« Be concentrate. »
Be concentrate.
« Now show me ! »
I'm going to show you !
I play... I don't fail. It's perfect. It was impossible one minute ago !
« Congratulations ! »
What did I win ?
« Do you want an award ? »
He comes closer to my face. I shake my head and he kisses me.
What I am doing ?
Tears fall.
« It's okay to cry. You miss me, right ? »
I look at his hands.
« - I miss you too much... Please come back...
- I can't choose. It's life.
- It is not even human... Why ? »
Please come back. I miss you.
« - Many people can understand how you are feeling. Talk to them !
- But I want to talk with you ! I want your hugs back ! Your kisses ! Your jokes ! Your touch !
No.
I don't want them. I just want you. Just you... »
I hope you are happy.
« It's life, baby. Even if you are my patner, the only one I love... »
I was in heaven with you.
« I won't come back. »
You didn't have to join it. You didn't deserve it.
His hands start to disappear. Then his arms, foot, legs, shoulders, stomach, chest, neck, hair, ears.
I can see his mouth, one last time.
« It's been too long since I had listened to you, playing piano. »
My hands are falling alone. I want your touch.
His mouth is now dust. I can only see his eyes. They say they love me.
This piano is so beautiful. More than me. Am I even beautiful ? I am sure he is ashamed of me.
They disappear. I already want them back.
I miss it.
« It was very beautiful, but not as much as you. »
