July 2018

Intro baby

Soooooo we start at the best part. Welcome to my life. I am a 14 year old, little shit of a teenager. I am a girl and I have too many emotions. This is just a story of how my brain works.

My friends were really key in this story. They are all my thoughts mushed and formed into people; people I really care about.
So my friends:
I spend the most time with zoe she lives close so I walk home with her she is always around. She is so lovely and always brings out good in situations or at least makes you laugh.

Then tia she is my rock I ask her about everything, she gives it to me blunt and tells me if I am wrong. I think she is probably my therapist.

Dylan is the male perspective I have, he is very likeable but isn't fortunate in the looks department; if you know what I mean. I tell him about everything, maybe even more than I tell tia. But I relate more to Dylan, we are more of the suffer in silence, type of people. The ones that are always happy but inside, crying out.

I will intro more people soon but they are what you need for now.

We all go to the same school, it's got a horrible moss green uniform and this story covers year 9 & 10. Well little snippets of it anyway.

I love school so much but recently I just have no motivation. I just want to sleep and eat and do nothing else. One thing I never understood is that people would have relationships in year 7 - like why- don't you wanna be with someone you love and care for? There's no future in a stupid relationship in year 7.

But I get it now

It's for experience, so it's not that awkward when you are with people you actually like.
It's also to show everyone you aren't frigid, or maybe to get more clout. Obviously me and my friends aren't really on the top of the food chain in school. We aren't the bottom though.

When I started secondary school, I had my eye on a different boy every month or so. It was a crush. A huge fat time wasting crush. That I was so transfixed by. I can list so many; if a boy so much as spoke to me nicely more than once , I would be glued to them. But still to this day I have not gone out with any of these boys, not one.
I never followed through, they were smart and popular. Or like a bad boy, that would never wanna be a round such a drab human being.
But this is when it changed.