July 2018

Relationships.

Classes were moving around and we were getting new sitting plans. I always pissed my self when this happened because what if I don't get along with someone, what if I'm sitting next to a lad like harry hendy, how am I gonna make friends with that??

So history got moved around and I got sat next to Niall. Funny bloke, well I didn't know that yet. I was really hoping to get to sit near jack. But sitting next to Niall opened up to so many possibilities. Jack was right by the window in the left corner and I was by the wall in the right. If I was desperate enough I could lean forward and see his face, the angle was just perfect, the light gave him a kinda halo effect around him.

My friends were pretty disappointed in my choice of male. He was childish, unfunny and very cocky. I just thought it was part of the Benham charm. I'm pretty sure I was insane

I knew where Benham was at lunch but I couldn't just show up, it was like he had me on a lead. I started going to the reject corner where he hung out and some people from my primary school where there so I could not be awkward. But I was the only girl apart from the few girls that came to hug me and leave. I still do give the best hugs.

I really shouldn't have left my friends to go find a boy but I was using some of my time to do something good. I found my love for watching the boys play football and commentating. In the colder months I remember me and tia just being the best commentators ever. But I know that tia was only doing it so we can see all the thiCC year 11s.

From sitting next to Niall I got pretty close with him I didn't even know he spoke before this. And I had Zoe right in front of me just so we can talk shit. The people who I used to hang out with had stopped visiting me but I didn't really care all I wanted was jack. I had dreams about him, I just wanted him really badly. Our relationship had gotten close he called me every morning to tell me if he was walking. I was really obsessed.

So I employed the best people for the job Dylan and his friends. Dylan and I have been friends with since year 7 he is just a solid guy and now being closer with Niall I could get along with Dylan's friend group Dylan Lyndon Nic and niall. They were the best to hang around, I had such great times with them. But at this point my mental health was kinda going out the window. I wasn't eating, because at break and lunch I was with the boys on the field. I got closer with a girl called tiggy who is so amazing  and she helped with the mental health part but the boys are too fond of her,  she is a bit everywhere.

With the boys I just felt so happy I just remember leaving our spot when the bell rings with our body's hurting because we laughed so much. And great news in English we got a new seating plan and I sat next to Nic. He was really lovely to be around. And jack would always be on the field with all the other boys. I would sit, and stare.

I loved that group of boys except for Lyndon he was a real dick head sometimes he would always go too far and he just wasn't that funny. But my memories are still fond, niall tripping Dylan and Nic up by putting his foot in-front of them and then just pushing them over it. I had such a lit time. I had been with this group of people for like a few months and they just made me happy. We would bully Lyndon about Megan and bully Niall about kissing Kimberly. Then whenever jack turns up Nic would always just whisper in my ear the most convoluted plan on how to pull jack Benham. Something like " just go up to him and give him a blow job, no teenage boy would deny that" he had a point, by this time I have walked with jack a million times and he is just so vain and self centred. He wasn't even that cute. But still something inside me still liked him.This was just after Christmas in the January tias birthday had just gone and it was time for Dylan's.