The First Step

Your First Picture

    On the day of you're first ultrasound I was filled with a mix of emotions. I was thrilled to finally get to see you and hear your heartbeat, I felt like I had been waiting a lifetime even though I had only known about you for a few weeks. I felt nervous hoping that everything was the way it was supposed to be and that nothing was wrong with my precious little angel. I felt sad that your dad couldn't make it and I knew he felt the same way cause baby he cried when he found out he couldn't be there.
    As I sat in the waiting room it felt like time had stopped going, like I sat there for an eternity just waiting. When I finally heard my name I jumped up and practically flew to the room only to be met with more waiting. Baby your mama was never the patient kind but this was just torture. When the doctor finally walked in there was so much talking that a new feeling came up. Frustration, that was the new feeling. Didn't he know how long I had been waiting, didn't he know that I didn't want to talk? Why couldn't the talking wait just a little longer? All I wanted in that moment was to see you to confirm that everything was the way it was supposed to be. I would have been more than happy to talk just after I had seen you, but no the talking must come first.
    The more the doctor talked the more my emotions began to set in I couldn't fight them back anymore. As I suddenly burst into tears the doctor became confused. He began telling me that it's not normal to be so upset over some questions. I had to explain to him that it wasn't the questions it was that your dad wasn't there holding my hand, that I hated to be there alone when you're dad wanted so bad to be there. The doctor suddenly understood, he finally let me see you knowing it would make me feel better.
    When your adorable little face appeared on that little screen the tears stopped, I only felt two emotions. Joy and love the two things you've always been able to make me feel. When he turned up the volume and I heard your heartbeat I suddenly knew that everything would be okay. One heartbeat, that's all it takes to change your life, to make you feel whole. When he printed out your pictures I wanted to stare at them forever to never let you go. Baby your first picture was only the beginning of your photo timeline, but of course your real timeline started the day I met your daddy. I never knew he would change my life, but baby he gave me you the best gift I ever received. You were the start of something great, a family.