"I....... When I was a teen well I still am but when I was around 15 I used to cut myself." Connor started crying by this point so I put my hand on his arm and he looked up at me and smiled a sad smile.
"I cut myself because I got bullied and I... I wa.. Was lonely and I cried I cried a lot but the cutting made me feel better I... I-" Connor said crying I pulled him in and hugged him. He pulled away.
"The band they help me even though they don't know it but they help me actually having friends it helps a lot and-" he stopped and pulled up his sleeves. I touched his scars gently. He looked up at me.
"I could never tell them what if they laughed at me what if they kicked me out the band Lucy I couldn't cope with that I would just start cutting again. My mum she takes me to the hospital I go once a week so they can check on my blood because I lost a lot and I was at risk of. Death I was at risk of death and it killed my mum I saw the pain in her eyes and the pain killed me the pain I caused her killed me. And I I stopped cutting myself" Connor said he was crying and to be honest so was I. I pulled him into a hug and we sat like this for a while. After what felt like hours Connor pulled away and wiped his tears and pulled down his sleeves to cover his arms.
"Connor I'm always here for you if you ever need me I'm always here u can trust me I promise you and I want to help you but that's completely up to you and don't be embarrassed of scared because-" I cut myself of and looked at my lap. Connor looked at me with a mix of shock and confusion. I rolled up my sleeves the scars where fading and hard to see but they were still scars and still there. Connor put a hand over his mouth and that's when the tears came.
"I didn't do great in my teenage years either I went through hard times and cutting was what I felt was my only option. My mum found out and got me help before it was to late." I looked at Connor. "So it's ok don't be embarrassed about it because I know how you feel but we mend each other we all help and that's why I can't loose Brad because he helps me he doesn't know it but he does and if I lost him then I think I would start cutting again." I stopped talking and looked away Connor pulled me into a hug
"It's ok I'm here for you" he said.
"And I'm here for you" I said.
"Right err I'm supposed to be cooking Brad bacon and eggs ha do you want some?" I said getting up.
"FOOOOOODDDD" Connor screamed running out the room I laughed. I walked to the kitchen luckily Brad wasn't here. I put the oven on and started cooking.
"Connor keep an eye on this I'm just gonna go check on Brad" I said pointing to the food and going to my room. Brad was sat on the floor crying. What happened?!? I ran over to him and sat beside him wrapping both arms around him.
"Brad what's wrong" I said worried. He pushed me away. What did I do?
"I walked in on you and Connor hugging don't act like I don't know what's going on" Brad said
"Brad no you don't understand we aren't together Connor was upset so I was comforting him like any friend would do" I said crying now.
"Don't lie to me we're over" Brad said getting up and leaving my room. I got up to and walked to the bathroom. I locked the door and sunk down on the ground. I saw a packet of razors I pulled up my sleeve and dug it in deep. It felt good seeing the blood trickle down my arm. I continued. I heard shouting so I decided to listen.
"BRAD WHAT WHY WOULD YOU THINK THAT IM YOUR BEST FRIEND BRAD AND IM GOING THROUGH A HARD TIME BUT I COULD NEVER TELL YOU BECAUSE YOU WOULD LAUGH AT ME YOU DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT YOUVE DONE. WHERE IS SHE" Connor shouted at Brad. I heard other voices but I didn't know what they where saying and I guess it was James and Tristan. Suddenly there banging on the door.
"LUCY LET ME IN ITS CONNOR LUCY PLEASE" Connor shouted. The amount of hurt in his voice killed me I stood up and opened the door razor in my hand, blood trickling down my arms and splashing on the floor and crying my eyes out I looked up and saw all 4 boys infront of me. No one moved.
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😭😭😭 I'm really sorry about how deep this chapter is I should've warned you. I like didn't know what to do with it so I've added a few twists and I have some good ideas actually so I will try update soon just be warned there will probably be some more deep chapters so if you don't want to read them that's fine err please vote and comment and tell me what you think of this chapter because it's my first time writing something really deep so yeah let me know what you think 😉
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