He's Forever Gone

chapter 5

I sighed and get up from the couch without saying a word because I didn't want to argue with her right now.

I walked over to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and gasped at the reflection. It was a ghost of who I was. I ran a hand through my messy hair not believing what I see.

I splashed my face with cold water to try and wash the pale girl in front of me, but it was impossible.

"Bella, are you okay there? "It's been two hours since you left me here," what's up? I heard jammy yelling from the living room.

Just give me some few minutes I'm almost done, I yelled back.

I'd stayed in the bathroom for what felt like eternity. Standing and looking up at myself in the mirror, repulsed by my own face.

The girl I saw looking back at me with ugly pala green eyes, bad skin, messy black hair and totally broken from inside and outside.

I hated that girl a lot. I just wanted her to go away forever, to leave me alone. But there was no escaping her, I'd forever be trapped in this broken skin, no matter how uncomfortable I felt in my own body, I'd always be stuck in it.

I wish everything could go back to normal.

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I turned off the water after taking a quick shower, and wrapped myself in a towel. I was walking back to my room but then I had some noise in the living room. I peeped through the door to see what was going on.

I saw Jammy watching TV and eating popcorn which I didn't finish the night before due to luck of my appetite. I didn't give much attention to what she was watching and head back to my room to change.

I walked to my closet and searched for something to wear. I decided on some sky blue Jeans with rips at the knees, and a plain black T-shirt. I put on my black boots and I took a look in the mirror as I watched my reflection.

I brushed off the tangles in my black hair while thinking about where this crazy friend of mine is gona take me. I don't want to go but then if I try to refuse, it will be another problem.... I will argue with her till she won which I don't feel like doing right now.

We've been the best of friends since like what? Five? Yeah I guess five. She's confident and she always goes after what she wants. She's allergic to rejections, which is another reason why I accepted to go wherever she wants to take me.

Why was I even friends with Jammy? She was popular and I was a wallflower. She was a party animal, drinks alcohol and she always have fun. But for me the first time I decided to go with Jay at the party, things didn't go well.

But I thank God, because no matter what I've been through, she's still here with me, I'm grateful to have her as my best friend. Though sometimes she acts like a bitch she has a good caring heart and I love her so much.

I was snapped back to reality when I heard her voice from there other room.

Hey," she called out. "I'm done, can you please calm down? It's not like I'm gonna die in here, even I don't want to go. I called back. Once the words were out of my mouth I regretted them, I didn't mean to be rude to her because the only thing she's doing is to help me and she's the only one I have left with. I'm sorry, you know, it's not easy for me right now but I didn't mean to be rude, words just left my mouth without thinking. I apologize immediately.

It's okay I understand, so hurry your ass out before I come in there myself to drag you out. She said with joking tone and I rolled my eyes.

"Okay mum" I joked back.

Once the tangles were out of my hair. I put it in a neat ponytail.
I didn't do any makeup because I didn't feel like. I just headed straight to the living room.

"I'm done," I said with a fake smile. She looked back at me and raised an eyebrow but she didn't say a word.

Okay lets get the hell out of here she switched off the TV and we headed out.

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Till next time.

Lyg😍

Darkpoet always ♡♡