He's Forever Gone

chapter 2

It's been 12 weeks, since I last seen Jay. Almost three full months since I last talked to him.

After that terrible night which occurred three months ago, I came back to my apartment which used to be 'ours'. Feeling all dirty, I was disgusted of myself, I couldn't believe that I kissed a stranger.

I couldn't sleep, I stayed awake the full night looking at the ceiling and replaying what just happened.

The next morning my phone beeped nonstop, probably receiving hatred messages from different people_such as, you're so cheap.., Bitch.., you didn't deserve him.., he was way better than you nerd... and many more. I looked at all messages wondering where all these people got my phone digits from.

Well, as the saying goes__Not all people can hate you, there were comforting messages from my best friend Jammy, and some other friends of mine.

The video was posted almost on all social networks, the comments were unpleasing especially from the scene where I kissed that bastard.... And all what happened next.

I felt a tug of guilty on my heart, that it even hurt me so much, I couldn't forgive myself, I hated myself so much.

I cried for days, I stayed indoors for weeks barely eating anything.

Nor did I want anyone to see me, I was in shame for what I did.

I barely had a good night sleep.

Jay, was my knight in the shining armor, he was my life but I had to screw up everything, and what makes matter worse is.... I don't have any clue about where he's now.

I haven't seen him or heard from him in three months, since that night. He hasn't been online on all social media and his phone was disconnected.____

I called him a million times and more but his phone wasn't answered and after some time it couldn't be reached anymore.

But that didn't stop me from sending him messages and calling him hoping that maybe one-day his phone will be on again.

Even I tried calling his best friend Seth, but he didn't tell me where he's, rather he just told me to back off, that Jay don't want to see me again and I should stay away from him.

Me and Seth were sort of enemies. And whenever we were around each other, we were always in a fight, we didn't like each other guts and only one person who used to connect us was Jay. But now everything was different.

If I could turn back time, I would do anything to bring back my guy, my Jay, my everything.

I would do anything to whatever happened that night, whatever made me and Jay separate.Even if it would cost a half of my life, I would...i would.

I still couldn't believe the fact that he was gone and it was all my fucking mistake

In this three months, I have learned that ghost don't have to be only those supernatural creatures that haunt you whenever you go to sleep. Sometimes they can be things or people that were once present in your life but they disappeared without you knowing.