He's Forever Gone

chapter 4

I wake up at the loud sound and open my eyes groaning.

"Bella open this damn door for God's sake,"__I hear someone banging on my door and yelling my name like a crazy person.

Fuck.. I cursed under my breath and sit upright, brushing off any stray hair from my face.

Twisting my head, I looked at the time on my bedside clock. It reads 7:am.

Seven freaking o'clock in the morning?... I said with wide eyes

Who the hell is on my door at this freaking time?... I questioned myself confused.

I bury my face in my palms squeezing my eyes shut in irritation.

Get your lazy ass up bitch and check the door, it might be Jay__My subconscious said.

But it was a lady's voice for pity's sake, and I don't want to be disturbed... I argued with my inner part.

I get up anyway and walked in a zombie form, heading to my door. All I want is to chop off the bustard's face, who has woken me up from my place of peace.

The place where I can forget all my damn problems.

God, I'm not a morning person. I groaned.

I forcefully opened the door ___ CAN'T YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND I FUCKING SLEEP IN PEACE.? I yelled at whoever was at the door as soon as I opened it, before looking at the person in front of me.

"God! Bella, look at yourself," said the warm voice at the door, ignoring my rude remark. I looked up to see my best friend Jammy

As soon as I realized that it's her, the anger slowly disappear and it's replaced with full of emotions.

She is dressed in dark jeans, white a crop top, a leather jacket and marched it with some adidas. She looks stunning as always with beautiful sea colored eyes and dark brown hair, unlike me, I'm the complete opposite.

Well, are you gonna let me in, or should I wait till Harry Styles shows up at your door singing your favorite song for you? She winked.

It's not funny, I said and rolled my eyes. Though I moved away from the door to let her in.

She knows very well that Harry Styles is my favorite in this world that's why she teases me with him sometimes.

She entered and sited on couch in my small living room. She didn't say a word for awhile, so did I. I didn't want to be the first one to break the silence because I didn't have anything to talk about. I just wanted to be left alone. So I just sited quietly as well and closed my eyes waiting for her to start the conversation.

"Bella," she said with sadness in her voice. I opened my eyes and stared at her blankly waiting her to continue with whatever she wanted to talk about.

"How are you," she asked careful but she knew I wasn't fine, she knew I was in hell but she wanted to hear it from me.

It's like I want to explain how I feel, I really do, but there are no words in the dictionary for it.  It's like their hidden, deep inside the dictionary. So I can't find them and tell her how I really feel, so I cover it with the words that everyone knows.

"I'm fine," I tell her not making eye contact with her because I know she could see through me that I was lying.

I know you're not fine Bella.  you're not fucking fine," she blurted out,  Don't fucking deny it because your face says it all__ I wanted to deny it though I know it was true but she continued  talking.

Look at you? I hardly recognize you now.  Your not the same old Bella I grew up with, you changed a lot, you no longer answer my calls. God only knows how many times I tried to call you but you wouldn't answer.

I break my phone into pieces," I mumble not knowing what else to say.

"What? she asked surprised.

"Yeah, I was tired of receiving hatred messages from people who hardly know me, I told her.

She was quite for a  minute but then she said more like an order __"Go take shower I want to take you somewhere and don't argue with me or try to refuse,"

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