SwanQueen Oneshots

I loved you too

Emma POV

I walk up to Elsa's house. She's one of my best friend's and when she invited me to her Christmas party I was so excited. I haven't seen her house yet, or even met her roommates.

"Hey, I'm so glad you could make it!" She greets me with a hug, "Okay so drinks are over there, here's the living room, bathroom is down the hall, and yeah have fun." She gives me the quick five second tour before rushing off to greet another guest. "Oh Emma!" She's suddenly pulling me back to the door. "Do you remember Regina from high school? She's at the university too."

No no no it can't be... Then suddenly I'm face to face with her. "I... um..." I mumble a bit, not able to find my words. I can't believe she's here. It's been four months since I last spoke to her. We started talking a year and a half ago, shortly after I graduated. We quickly became very close. She helped me though a lot of really shitty times. I developed feelings for her. Very strong feelings. She didn't feel the same. Eventually our friendship became very unhealthy and we decided to end it. I wasn't ever supposed to talk to her again, but now she's here. Standing right in front of me. Why is she even here?! Why are her and Elsa friends?!

She's staring at me too. "Umm hi Em." she finally says. "Hey... Gi- erm Regina."

Elsa, sensing the tension between us perks up, "Wait Emma. She's Gina?! Oh my god I'm sorry. I had no idea."

"Yeah. Not your fault. How could ya." I say quickly, not taking my eyes off Regina. I notice the full glass of wine in Elsa's hand. "Can I have some of that..." I take the glass from her hand, quickly chugging the entire thing before handing it back to her. Leaving Elsa and Regina at the door, I head off to the living room. I take a beer from some random girl's hand. Chug that down too before shoving her on the couch and straddling her.

Regina POV

"Umm wow. Maybe I should go..." I reach behind me to open the door. Elsa stops me, "No it's find. She'll be okay... I think."

"I'm really sorry. I guess I should have thought this through a little better. I mean... of course Emma's here. You two are best friends. So she's clearly mentioned me before... how much do you know?"

"I know that you guys talked for a long time, she had feelings for you, then you guys decided to end it."

"Okay so she is like out to you then... I wasn't sure. Last time we spoke she was still nervous about coming out to people.

"Oh yeah, she actually used you to do so... and considering she's currently making out with my roommate... I'm pretty sure she's fine with people knowing." She points her thumb over to where Emma is on the couch. I give Elsa a sad smile in response.

~ 2 hours later ~

Emma POV

I'm sitting on the stairs of the back porch. It's quiet out here. The crowd was getting to be a bit much for me. I hear the door squeak as it opens. A blanket gets wrapped around my shoulders. Then she's sitting beside me.

"You shouldn't be out here without a jacket."

"What do you want Regina?"

"I wanted to talk to you." She gives me a meaningful look. I scoff and look away. Choosing a nice snow covered tree to focus on.

"Okay why are you acting like this? Like you're angry with me. I thought we ended on good terms."

I whip my head around to look at her, "Yeah well we didn't," I spit though clenched teeth. "I fucking loved you and you just left me."

She looks surprised at my outburst. "I didn't just leave! It was mutual. It was as much your decision as it was mine to end our friendship."

"Oh yeah. Come on Regina. You and I both know that no matter how that conversation went you weren't going to talk to me anymore. What would you have done if I hadn't confronted you about being distant?! You probably would have just left me with no explanation at all." She stares at me wide eyed. Completely speechless. "Yeah that's what I thought. You fucking coward." I see a few tears escape her eyes. Shit... I probably went a little far. Oh well. The damage is already done.

"Emma..." her voice is quiet, if I wasn't sitting so close I probably wouldn't have heard her. "I had no idea you felt that way... I was just trying to do the right thing."

"Yeah I know," I say much more calmly than before, "doesn't mean it hurts any less." We sit there for a moment, trying to process everything. "Can you just tell me... did you... did you feel anything for me at all? Or was it all just completely meaningless to you?"

"Emma I -"

"Regina please... I need to know. I know it won't change anything. I just need to know if it was all in my head because I feel like a crazy person." I try to blink away the tears threatening to escape.

"Emma you aren't crazy. It wasn't all in your head. I loved you too. I just thought that if I told you that you wouldn't be able to say goodbye."

"Okay."

She grabs my hand and laces our fingers together. I rest my head on her shoulder and we sit there in a comfortable silence.

I'm sorry if this is a bit confusing. It's based off something very personal. I thought maybe writing this would be a good, healthy way to express my feelings lol. Hope y'all still enjoyed it.

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