𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐧 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐬 | 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐞𝐝

seventy nine

Heros and Villains 

In the lives who live like mine, many of them have a very life changing moment, and it's a heartbreaking one.

It's the moment when you realize that the hero's in your story books are actually the villains, who plague your dreams transforming them into nightmares.

It's the one where you feel betrayed afterwards. Almost as if your body is being torn into two. This is the time of realization. Realizing the people you love most are the people who hurt you the most.

When your parents choose something worthless over something priceless. When they let you down with no possibility of redemption. Because of the grasp it has on them. Addictions grasp is relentless.

It creates a wall between parent and child to make sure nobody can cross it, while the addiction builds the stronger the wall gets, and the further the distance becomes.

While the distance grows, the feeling of loneliness sets in, causing the addiction to grow stronger taken with each pill, with each line, each drink, anything and everything that makes them feel not so alone.

Meanwhile, on the other side of the wall emotions cloud at the child's head until it's throbs, until you cry and scream wanting, wishing, praying for the pain that holds your body, and the sadness in that holds your heart to go away but it doesn't.

It feeds on your energy, your spirit until all the fight has left your body, and all you want is for the pain to stop.

Along with all the indescribable feelings in between. And at this point you would do anything for it to stop, but all you can do is go back to that moment where it all started.
The moment where you realize your parents are gone with no chance of return.

The moment where you realize that everything you have ever known, ever loved, is gone along with them.

Your soul. Your heart. Your smile.

My soul. My heart. My smile.