||winter woods|| a therian journal

12/2/18

Well I'm finally forcing myself to make a real entry! *why am I so lazy?*

I have midterms coming up but I probably will end up waiting until the day before to study. Once we get those over with, we have Christmas break!! I still have absolutely no idea what I want though..

I've been thinking a lot about my theriotypes lately, and I'm not sure that I'm actually a canine therian after all. The thing is, I've been through a lot of theriotypes in the sense that I have so much trouble figuring out what I really am. I've been through wolf, husky, deer, reindeer, bunny, Golden retriever, cat, fox, coyote, shepherd, and probably a bunch more I just can't remember. The thing is, humans are naturally..connected, in a manner of speaking, to dogs. "Man's best friend," and all that. 

There is also the fact that wolves, along with other animals, such as deer, foxes, or owls, are heavily romanticized creatures, seen as beautiful, powerful, and rare. One would wish to be a creature such as this so deeply they might start to believe they actually are that creature. So how am I supposed to truly know whether I am a certain animal, or if I only wish to be that animal? 

I've also started to wonder if I'm an avian therian. I've always wanted to fly, and I'm sure I've mentioned wing shifts before in this journal. But again, I've always seen birds as beautiful creatures, and it could just be me wishing to be one.

Before I wrap this up, I also wanted to say another thing that has been bothering me. I remember seeing a YouTuber say that if you don't identify as your theriotype, you aren't really a therian. This kind of bothered me because I see all of my theriotypes as being past lives. If I want to identify as a therian though, I still can, right? 

Idk, that's just some stuff I've been thinking about. I'm gonna try to update more frequently too.

Have a wonderful day,

❄️Ivy❄️

P.S. It's finally December which means Christmas! Aaaa why am I so excited