Loveless Hope {Frerard}

the black whites and greys

  When I was young I was always told to suffer in silence and to not let go of what is hiding in my eyes I never understood it.
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But I think I finally do... Perhaps I'm different then others perhaps my fear keeps me here perhaps I'm always hiding perhaps it's because I have my little light of color despite my depression... I still see light and they are all black and white and empty and hollow and always scared I hate the fear and pain they see and hide from they are empty all empty

They told me something else...to be that light and make the dark fade they are gone now and I'm alone they can't hurt me when I hide though so I must hide that light...if that's the case...

Why is franks light so much brighter than mine?.....

Who...are you
What are you
How are you so much brighter than me?

all questions that remain in Gerard's mind

"Am I broken"
"Or was I ever OK in the beginning"

"That Frank guy always catches my eyes...

Something follows him is it        light or dark pain or
Is it Something else?

"...Maybe it's all of it..."

Gerard shrugs his head and slaps the thoughts out

"The more I focus on it the worse it will be"

All through the light in him is intriguing as it may be

"...what the hell am I thinking this isn't like me"

"I always find myself back to them...my family...is it an endless psychological abyss?.... I can't get away from it just like this frank guy...why do I find myself thinking of him...why is he so goddamn...FUCKING NICE".

Gerard let's out a sigh and looks at him
" so strange so confusing...maybe its some human nature he has...well if he is then the rest are aliens...heh ill take that idea"
Gerard takes a couple steps toward the tree he mutters under his breath
"what am I doing"
Gerard finds himself staring at him.....
"something always oozes from those who seem the most ordinary...pain heartache..so interesting..."
Gerard looks up at the tree noticing a rope hanging frank touching it and gripping it tight Gerard moves a step closer Gerard being as close as he can be to the tree why hasn't he noticed me?...

"In the end its just another day...and a day that always changes the beats of life

In the end its all so strange isn't it...just another heart...just another death just another story...isn't it...you can speak I may not be able to see you but I could hear your footsteps... I am here to save you..."

Frank holds his hand out to Gerard.
..."this guy is fucking insane"
Gerard carts his hand through the large bark on the pipe and climbs next to him"what the fuck am i doing" he sets his eyes above frank "how long have you been here" Gerard asks playing with his red hair frank looks at Gerard with a stoic face
"You're the kid from the locker Gerard right wheres your stutter do you just feel safer here or...hmm the grave you were at...i see there spirit is still here haunting" Gerard looks at Frank in awe"its a dark way to see and a dark way to fade the spirit isn't gone if it never leaves the body now does it" Frank looks back at Gerard..."why are you here" Gerard responds "with someone of your words I'm surprised you haven't seen it and i could ask of you the same-"Gerard gets interrupted by a loud bang as he sees 2 people at his grandmother's grave he runs to it frank following behind seeing a knife stabbed into the grave alongside a bucket of oil and a note its not better if she stays" Gerard looks down rips the note apart and looks down frank grabs him and pulls him into a hug"...words of this nature isn't meant to be spoken it's meant to be added upon so lets get those fuckers"

*coughs thanks for reading sorry for the delay I've been working on big projects as of late including my passion project it may be released here soon but idk I'm just a person thanks for reading and so long and goodnight;