I'll Be Your Hero - Tom Parker ( The Wanted ) Fan Fiction (COMPLETED)

Chapter 14

It had been two months since Tom had gone. No sign from him, no nothing. He promised me he wouldn’t be gone long but he broke his promise. Him not being around was slowly killing me inside. I didn’t know whether to hate him or hate the people that were keeping him from me. I needed to see him or at least feel him with me. I decided that I was going to try taking a risk like I did the last time. I needed to have him around. I longed for him. I needed to feel him around, I needed to hear his voice, for him to tell me everything was going to be alright and that nothing would hurt me, I needed him more than anything else in the world. I needed to be with him.

I slipped my shoes off and walked bare foot along the beach. I was back ‘home’ again. To the place where I first found out about Tom. I sat down on the sand just looking across the water. It was calm for a change. The waves slowly came up and tickled my feet. I smiled as I thought of Tom. Everything about him made me happy and without him I was dying on the inside. I wasn’t me anymore. I wasn’t Jess. I was unknown to even myself. Things just weren’t the same without him. I found it hard to talk to anyone. I was lost in my own thoughts most of the time. All I could think about was him. I thought about him every minute of the day. He was the first thing I thought about in the morning and my last thought at night. My dreams were usually of him. Everything was about him.

I stood up and started to make my way into the water. I went in just until the water was at my waist. I let the water hit my body. I didn’t have a care in the world. I slowly started to walk in further and further. My head was just above the water. Still no sign of Tom…No nothing yet again. I wasn’t going to give up. I took a deep breath and walked even further into the water. My head was now underwater. My eyes were shut tight yet still the salt water found a way to sting my eyes. I could taste the salt on my lips as I tried to take a breath forgetting I was under water. I started to panic forgetting I could just swim. I waved my arms about franticly in hope of someone helping…In hope of Tom helping. I managed to swim back to shallow water. I sat in the water as I let myself calm down. I looked around. The beach was empty. Not a sign of anybody never mind Tom. I sighed before going to my bag and getting a towel out in hope of drying myself off slightly before having to get the train home.

I was home again back to the place that reminded me the most of Tom. Every minute of the day we had spent cuddled up on the couch I was sitting on. The memories I had with him were mostly in the house. Everything in the house reminded me of him only making me morn for him more. I needed to feel him around just to hug him would make me happy. I wished he was here, I wished he wasn’t dead; I wished he could be mine forever. I decided I wasn’t given up. I needed him and I was going to get him. If he couldn’t come to me I was going to go to him.

I stood there, legs trembling, and my eyes tightly shut. I took a few deep breathes before opening them. I looked down seeing the waves smashing against everything that was in their way. The water wasn’t like what it was like earlier that day. It was like a monster had taken over. It roared as it smashed against the rocks. I stood there on the edge of the bridge, just looking down. I looked up at the sky and thought of Tom. I was scared but I had to do it, for him. I longed for him, his touch, his smell, his love. I just needed to be with him. I smiled as I remembered I was leaving the bad and entering the good. I was going to be with him. I was getting the one thing I wanted I just had to be brave. I stepped a little closer the edge. It was around 2am and not a single car was about. I took a small step closer. The tip of my shoes hovering over the edge. As I looked down once again I felt my body shake as I nearly tipped over. I quickly stood back a little. I looked to the sky one last time before stepping closer feeling my body tip forward I whispered the words. “This is for you Tom.”