Do you think that everyone deserves to be loved? Do you want to give Gavriel from IIL a second chance? Then read my story to discover Gabriel as he should be.
For my Season 1 go to https://www.wattpad.com/588239651-gabriel%27s-point-of-view-chapter...
I still have in my hands her last note. I found it in her bedside table the morning that she left. I still have the key to her apartment and she has mine. I will always hope that one day she will open my door and be with me again. The ink in her note is distorted. She was crying when she wrote it. Sorry angel but I can't listen to you. I can't just let you leave, I want you back. I went through hell, I fought with my emotions, I did everything in my power to forget you, but I ended up where I knew from the very beginning. I can' t... I can't forget you, it took me some time to realize it, but I am sure that you are the love of my life the one and only. I don't want to waste myself to any pointless ephemeral relationship. Even if I won't succeed and you will never return to me I prefer to stay with this pain and this void in my life. I will learn to love them because they are what left from you and with time I will only remember our good times. Under her note she has left her mobile device. She doesn't want to be found but I will do anything to find her even if it acquires my last breath. From time to time she releases songs. All of them are so sad about unfulfilled dreams, betrayed love, broken heart. I know that deep inside she still loves me, but her pride won't let her admit it even to herself. Every time I have a clue of where she might be I travel around the world to find her. Each time it is too late, she has already moved to another place. One day I will catch you my love and I hope you will be ready to accept me in your life again, but until then I am trying to keep your memory alive. Every night I go to your apartment, I spray the bed with your perfume and then I sleep on it. That's what I did too when Emmanuella was staying at my place. She thought that I had sex with other women, but it was your perfume my angel. I acted like a jerk to her because I wanted to be sure that she will get over me and stay out of my way for good. I don't give a damn for her. She destroyed my life multiple times, and I hope I destroyed hers. I wish I have never met her. Claire's POV It's been over a year that I left. I traveled everywhere in the world trying to find a way to forget and find my inner peace. I didn't have the need for a new relationship. No one can take his place. I just needed to change my life and take my mind off things. I learned about different religions, different cultures, I met so many people. They all had a story to tell, but every time they knew me enough to ask for my story I realized it was time to leave. I don't want to tell my story to anyone. I don't want to live those moments again. I want to remember only the good moments that we shared. Somehow, I think that if I don't tell it to anyone I will manage to forget everything, but it is a lie. I remember every single detail of what happened, and it still hurts me the same. Only my songs can wash away the pain, but it is temporarily, every time the pain returns, and it is worse than before ... The last months I am living in Turkey. I work for a movie. I sing the soundtrack of the movie and I play at scene where I supposed to be the heroine of the movie at a younger age that dances with her boyfriend. We finished recording the song and I am preparing for the dance scene. I haven't met my partner yet. I just hope he will be good in dancing and we will progress the scene quickly. I take my position and wait for him to come. The music starts, and a handsome man comes my way. We start dancing in perfect harmony. The way he moves and how he looks at me remind me of Gabriel. He brings back to me so many memories of when I was dancing with my love. I can't handle these emotions. I was trying so hard not to think about him, but it is pointless. Eventually his thought will find me. I can't hide from him. He still lives inside me... I spent all the week locked in my room thinking of what to do. I think I found the solution. It is my last hope. I will turn to God for help and guidance. I will become a nun... Six months have passed since I came to the monastery. I spend my day praying, doing philanthropies, and trying to find my inner peace. I still remember him every day but at least his thought doesn't hurt me so much. I finished with my morning pray and I am going downstairs to welcome the visitors. I walk in the church, I prepare the candles and before I turn I already know who I am going to face because my heart always beats like crazy when he is around. "what are you doing here?" I slowly turn to face Gabriel. He hasn't change at all. He is still so beautiful. The way he is looking at me is a little strange, why is he looking at me like that? I can see him blushing. Oh no, I know what he is thinking, and he makes me blush too. Finally, he turns his head right and left as if he was trying to escape his naughty thoughts and then he takes a deep sigh. "I was going to ask you exactly the same question" he still stares at me from head to toe. "it is difficult to get used to this image, right?" "yeah... I had imagined you as a nun but not a real one and not in church" he smiles mockingly. "Gabriel stop it, we are in a church and you embarrassed me. You can't talk to me like that anymore" "sorry angel. I haven't seen you for so long and I wasn't expecting this. Can we go somewhere more private to talk? Please?" "Follow me" I guide him to a peaceful place in the yard. It is not exactly private, but we can talk. "I am listening, but I don't have much time" "I need you... please come back with me" "last time I check your house wasn't a church" "Claire please stop this nonsense and return home. There is nothing that we can't deal together" "my faith is not nonsense. It kept me alive and sound when you were having fun with other women" "there is no other woman in my life and never was, but you have made an image of me and my past in your head you have stack to it. Deep inside you know I am telling you the truth" "maybe but even then, I still can't forgive you. You chose to be with her that day. We weren't a couple back then, you could have sex with any woman that you wanted, I wouldn't care but one year after we lost our baby because of her I wasn't expected to find her at your place" "I didn't invite her, she came, I was drunk, I was alone, desperate and mad because you never answered my calls, I didn't care who would be with me if it wasn't you" Nobody talks for a while. You can feel the tension between us. We both made mistakes. We both suffer a lot. But I can't forget, I can't forgive, I can't move on... I can't return. "Angel please come back with me" "I can't" "all this time I was praying to God to bring you back to me. He took our baby, I won't allow to take you too as long as you live. Do you understand me?" He holds my hand. Oh my God. His touch still has the same effect on me. I try to free myself but this time he grabs me by my waist. "I won't lose you again" "leave me, please" I struggle but I can't escape. He leans forward and kiss me. For a moment it seems like a dream. My heart starts healing as long as our kiss lasts. My body feels warmer. But my mind brings me back to reality. I immediately push him away. "You never respected anything. You ruin everything. Now I have to leave this place. I will never find peace" "I will always run after you wherever you go. We belong to each other, just accept it and stop wasting time. I love you angel" I run to my room, take off my nun cloths, wear a normal outfit, take my suitcase and run. I run as far away from him as possible... After years and years Gabriel decided to leave me alone and not run after me. He finally accepted my decision. I still love him. I will always do but I can't risk of being hurt again... I am back to New York for a few days. I am taking part in an artistic exhibition. All I need to do is just sit on a chair and observe people that come to see me. It is not allowed to speak to them. I don't know exactly why the artist chose me for this role, but the money is good and deep inside of me I hope that maybe Gabriel will show up. I would love to see him after so many years, to see how he looks like, what he feels... It is the last day of the exhibition. He didn't come. Maybe he is really tired of running after me... Minutes before the closure I am disappointed, and I don't really want to see anyone. I stare at the floor when I hear someone sitting in front of me. I slowly get up my head to see him and I face Gabriel. He has changed, he seems more mature, but he is still charming and sexy. I am so overwhelmed with emotions. With the years I learned to remember only the good memories that we had but still I know I can't return to him. I lean forward and hold his hands, he smiles. With our eyes we say all that we can't say with words. I know that we still love each other. He takes a ring out of his pocket and wears it on my finger then he leaves my hands, winks at me and disappears in the crowd. Tears running from my eyes, it is my wedding ring. Please God let this not be the last time I see him... I decided to spend the last years of my life in Elba. I have so many nice memories here. Every inch of the island has his mark on it. I feel as if he leaves with me. I read my newspaper on my balcony each morning with joy but today something upsets me. Gabriel has put on sale the palazzo. I leave the newspaper on the table and I leave. I take the fairy to Tuscan. I take a taxi to palazzo. I still have the keys. I stand in front of it for a few moments. I need a closure. I have to do it. I have to face all the bad memories in order to move on before it is too late. I open the door. It seems that the time has stopped. Everything is as we left them that day. I walk on the stairs to go to our room. I feel young again. I remember me wearing my wedding dress. I stand in front of the big mirror, I remember Gabriel wearing me the neckless that I still wear. And then I realize that it was all my fault. Oh God, what have I done? Out of fear of being hurt again, due to my insecurities and disbelief I waste all my life running away from the man that I love more than my life. I leave the house determined to put an end on this. I dial his number on my phone after so many years. His phone rings and I can't wait to hear his voice. Finally, he answers. "Angel?!" "my love, can you forgive me? " I am so afraid that he will reject me. My heart is going to stop. "I don't want to be alone anymore" "angel, I don't know about you, but I still wear a ring on my finger with your name on it. I was afraid I would die alone without having the chance to see you again" I look at my fingers. I am wearing his ring too. I didn't take it off even once since he gave it to me at the exhibition. "Can I return home please?" "you never left my angel. Your home will always be my heart. I am waiting for you"
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