Deans daughter

Chapter 26

**TRIGGER WARNING**

SENSITIVE CONTENT

SUICIDE

I walked through the bunker, I had finally gotten used to walking without my crutches, I was finally able to help myself walk around.

I was finally able to do what I wanted to do.

Living life as a hunters daughter wasn't easy, actually it was too hard for me to handle, so I took a deep breath and walked over to the armory, what I was about to do wasn't going to be difficult, but it wasn't going to be easy either.

I picked up a pistol and smiled, my escape.

As soon as I had the pistol in my hand I realized what was going to happen, I knew what I was going to do.

I got a piece of paper and began writing my note.

Dear Sam, Dean, Cass and Jack

I know that this might come as a shock to you, but I felt this is the right way to go.

I can't handle being alive anymore, some people are meant to live, some people aren't, I'm one of those people who aren't.

I can't walk around feeling useless any longer and I've done nothing because all of you pain. I'm not worth it.

I'm not worth any of it.

Me being gone may be hard at first but you'll move on, trust me.

Please just understand there is nothing that any of you could've done to help me. I've tried taking to people, I've tried to be happy but it's just not that easy.

A girl my age shouldn't have been through what I went through.

All of those bad things that happened to me were just signs, signs that I shouldn't be here, signs that I don't belong on this earth.

I love you all, please don't blame yourselves for this, all of that time spent alone in my bedroom left me with time to think, and this is what I have been thinking about.

An escape.

So I'll see you all in heaven, assuming that it's still possible to get there.

-Ellie

I signed off the note and felt a single tear fall from my eye which I quickly wiped away, Now was not the time to be feeling nostalgic, it was time for me to go.

I placed the note on the kitchen table and took a deep breath.

I had been planning this for weeks, this wavy date, when I knew that the bunker would empty, but now that the time had finally come I wasn't so sure if I was going to go through with it.

I walked into my bedroom and held the gun up to my head.

I stood there like that for a few moments and let a smile form on my face, I was finally going to be free.

The last thing that I saw was my bedroom door flying open as I pulled the trigger and was overcome with darkness.