Ranting🤷

Dear Mom

Dear Mom,
You piss me off. You don't know how many times I've cancelled plans to come over and you say youre sick so I have to stay home all weekend doing absolutely nothing. You're constantly sleeping too. You say that you "couldn't sleep last night" and use that as an excuse to not do anything. I spend my nights staying up until five am because I'm too scared to sleep alone. I liked you better when you were on drugs. At least I had your drug dealers kids to play with. You always tell me I need to bring my grades up and stop being so lazy yet you can't take the hint that I'm depressed. You'd know better than anyone what depression looks like. You say it's hard being the "dysfunctional" one in the family, try being your own daughter for a change. It's hard enough being alive and I never had a dad growing up so I needed you to be both figures in my life and you couldn't even be the slightest bit of a mother figure. I hate that I love you still.