Fairytails and myths must not know time
That's why they all live
happily ever after
- an author
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2018-09-15 》 03.27 》 01:42:37
blue hour
"Why?"
"It's because you would hate me."
Okay, so what the fuck was wrong with him?
Youngjae didn't have any clue.
There was this really attractive sounding guy with a deep raspy voice that would've made angels fall down from heaven speaking in miracles to him since more than an hour now which had no self-esteem at all.
It just left the boy wondering why and made him curious, yes, even impatient.
He knew about his best friend so far.
Or ex-best friend?
No matter what, there was a split and he left him alone.
Completely.
After many backs and forths he really came to the idea of wondering what their relationship was really like.
I mean- yeah, he described him almost like the second jesus.
Jinyoung was a good and loyal person, to say the least.
"What leaves you thinking that I wouldn't like you, Def?"
"Just a feeling~"
There was it again.
A deep chuckle.
It didn't last long, but all his hopes counted on it.
He had to find him.
Really.
But he needed time.
Time to find out where he currently was and maybe even his real identity.
To gain that time the strawberry-blond boy had to keep him right then and there, talking to him and not making him take any further descisions of completing his plan to end his life.
He knew that Def wouldn't be able to do it with Youngjae listening on the other side.
The man seemed to be kind and thoughtful, not willing to hurt others.
At the same time he didn't really talk about himself.
He just found miracles and other stories to overcome the fact that he was not telling his own story.
Maybe he was indeed telling it but he didn't really bother to include himself any further.
And that made it fucking difficult.
So... what would you do in a situation like that, being the very confused Youngjae?
Right.
Not doing anything that would the person next to him close up any further.
"You are an idiot."
"Wha-"
"Yes, dear Mr. Def. You are a completely helpless and romantic idiot. Do you really think I'm here to judge you? First, I am not even in the place to do so. Second, I promise to not be nosy but I can't promise you I'm not lying to you."
A smug grin appeared on his face, even Def seemed to notice the quietly flexing muscles on the others face just by hearing his voice.
Now he was talking just appropriate for his age, without respect and mockingly.
"Yah, how old are you? 15? Get down your high, my little prince", the surprised man childishly said while he couldn't hold his grin in anymore.
"I'm not on a high, it's just the truth. It doesn't seem like a story of a book you're telling me at the moment but more like a never ending telenovela", Youngjae snapped and giggled.
'I need to get at least something out of him.'
"Don't be silly, if it were a telenovela I would've not ended up here", Def contemplated.
"Tell me more about your bond then. It was strong, wasn't it? So why did it crumble?"
"I was a very angry kid, you know... There used to be times I was quite cheerful and friendly but sometimes... I felt like something was nagging on me. It was eating me from the inside out and I had to release pressure. It often resulted in anger attacks when I couldn't deal with difficult situations."
No way ever would've Youngjae thought Def could ever get angry.
He sounded like a calm nature, so it was really obnoxious to think he would have had issues with his temper.
"When I was a teenager I didn't stop, though. Anybody thought I would've grown out my temper within time but it didn't happen. I still carried this ugly burning fire in me, which made me loose control many times. I always used to blame my parents but all fault is to put on me. I did things I'm not proud of and I really do regret every single one of them. I made people sad and hurt their feelings so badly because of my stubborness."
Chewing on his lower lip the younger boy focused on the elders words again.
Things he still regrets, huh?
Youngjae himself had been a rather quiet and settled adolescent, or so he at least thought.
While everyone was out having their virginity taken or doing crazily named drugs on even more crazy parties he was studying in his room or reading books in the library.
It was his mom's fault.
She raised him appropriately and ,without any doubt, with love and care.
He never complained, though.
But then, it seemed like his and Def's childhood and teenager years had been complete opposites.
He might have probably done crazy drugs on parties, lost his virginity to a beautiful woman and spray painted half Itaewon with graffiti.
But it was completely okay.
Youngjae had never really envied the people who did such things.
It was a lifestyle as well but he chose the more comfortable one.
The only thing that bothered him and burned like a hot chili pepper on his tongue was the fact that it'll be hard to understand him.
He would try and listen.
That was all he could do at the moment.
