Rollercoaster of Fuck-Ups//Willne Fanfiction

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A couple of days later...

"Hello guys, and welcome to the True Geordie Podcast, here we are joined with Hayley Norton who has been requested many times to be on the podcast" Brian introduced as I smiled.

"How's everything going recently?" Lawrence questioned.

"Good thanks, what 'bout yous" I replied, sipping at my wine.

"Good" they both replied.

It was an emotional podcast, but don't worry, my mum was here, they bought my mum, of course it would be emotional with many questions being asked.

I pulled her in for a tight hug, as she wrapped her arms around me, she smiled at me before we sat down.

"You both look very similar" Lawrence pointed out.

"Aye, it's wear she gets her good looks from" Mum joked as I pursed my lips together, even though it's been years, she still knew how to annoy me. Her comment did make both Lawrence and Brian laugh.

"So Hayley, What was your background story then? Because I'm already guessing it it's very interesting" Brian questioned.

"Very" Mum agreed.

"Even though, yous weren't there for 9 years of it" I told her, she raised her eyebrow at me, but I faced Brian and Lawrence before explaining, "We lived in Whitley Bay, and nearby was a gymnasium, where I started gymnastics and trained for 13 years as I stopped at 15, so I begun at 2. Anyway, with that I made it to the elite squad, won 3 world gold titles and was meant to be performing at the 2012 Olympics, but I was dropped and banned because of drugs. When I was younger, about 9, I'm sorry to say this mum, but this has a massive part of my background, mum decided to come home every night, very mortal and mainly paralytic. She would sit on the corner sofa and have spliffs, even sniff cocaine and take the odd pills. Dad knew but he couldn't stop yer, yer would be physically abusive and mum you got too bad, it became verbally and mentally" I glanced at mum, "yous hit everyone apart from Lauren because she never knew what drugs were, she never questioned you. That's when by 11, I was diagnosed with depression and everything didn't go right, I was barely at home-"

"Why haven't you mentioned about yer dad like?" Mum interrupted me.

"I was about to get to that" I replied, "anyways, I was barely at home, I began cutting myself" this caused Brian, Mum and Lawrence to gasp, "this is never something I've told anyone, so this feels a bit weird"

"Why didn't yer say anythin?" Mum asked.

"I couldn't trust yer, yous never cared anyways" I answered, I turned my arm to show the tattoo and pointed out the scars.

"Oh shit" Lawrence said.

"This stopped at 13, so after when you left us, because you cheated, and dad accidentally hit you once because he was livid, I don't blame him. You took money, you stole from my grandparents, and we all got the blame. When I was 13 I began smoking after trying it with my friend and I loved it, I had my first fight at 13, the only good thing about this is I knew how to defend myself because of yous, but I do have yer anger and temper, but anyway, when I was 15, I stopped attending gymnastics as I moved to London, where I met, Chloe, Megan, JJ, Simon, Ellie, Courtney and Kian. It was a mad school, I lived with my Nan and grandad, with Tristan and Liam, because dad let Lauren moved back to Newcastle with him and Maria, which us 4 all aren't good terms at the moment. Me being 15 and 16 was an eventful year, me and Kian got together, that was a shit relationship but we couldn't leave each other" I felt tears brim my eyes, "he did something, that I never wanted to happen, which was rape, I was addicted to weed, I'd smoke it with Liam and Tristan all the time. I got pregnant with Kian at 17, then had a miscarriage" I breathed in sharply, "my dad nearly died when I was 18 and this is where my depression worsened because I tried cocaine, and I knew the consequences, so I did it and I ended up in hospital with my dad, as he tried to commit suicide. Then got out of my relationship with Kian, at 17, ended up getting with Callum then that ended when i joined Geordie Shore at 18 and basically that's it until a couple months ago, where I decided I didn't want to love then tried committing suicide, but now I'm fine, with no relationships, the odd bit of beef and amazing people around us" A tear finally managed to escape, "and mum that's nine years of my life you've caught up on, and with missing Liam's death"

"It's not my fault, Hayley" Mum sniffed.

"Nout ever was, yous only cared when I was in hospital, yous never cared, even about yer oldest son dying" I forcefully wiped my tears. I necked my glass of wine before mum stood up and left the room.

"Yous okay?" Brian quizzed.

"Aye" I nodded.

The podcast was also based on my lesbian experiences, piercing experiences and a lot of fights.

"This has been the most up-down podcast I've ever been apart of" Lawrence mentioned.

"Then let's hope British Gymnastics watch this" Brian Joked as we all began laughing.

Sorry the chapter wasn't the best, it's based upon, Hayley's background and I  thought it would be a good idea to explain it through her being part of a podcast.