MR AUTUMN ( EXO KAI Fan fiction)

Chapter: Eight

           

I couldn't help looking at him.. my sobbing started to get louder..and after a few seconds, I couldn't see anything but tears..

He grabbed me into a warm hug.. " hsssh, don't cry.. I am here.."

"You are not", I tried to talk

"why are you thinking this way?"

" I lost you.. "

"But I found you.."

" It's a silly dream,, I will wake up and you gonna disappear.."

"I won't.. " his hug became a tighter one..

I didn't talk back after that.. I took a hold of his shirt like a drowning person holds a wood log.. I don't want to lose him.. I don't want to let go of him.. and even if he hates me, I just want to live a hatred life..

God, do you really need to create the feelings of love in this crazy way?

"Jongin ?"

"hmm ?"

I sniffed his chest to feel him in a more real way..

" I struggled a lot, Jongin.."

" but you lost terribly, love.."

I got up from his chest.. his shirt was almost wet with my tears.. I looked at him.. his golden skin was shinning in the bluish dim light of my room .. I touched his cheek..

" did you play with me ? that time?"

He took my hand and kept it on his heart.. I felt his beating.. I really didn't know if my heart had any types of beating after I left him.. I started crying and I didn't know the reason..

"I cannot do it.."

"what ?"

"I love you in a way that even it hurts just to breath.. what if my everything makes you hate me.. "

" Irina.. why are you scared ? See, I am right here.."

" I am scared to lose you.."

" You really don't understand  or you don't want to understand – which one ?" He shouted with disgust..

I sighed and got off.. I really didn't know what was going through me.. I tried to get out from the room..

As soon as I reached my door knob, he stopped me. I struggled to escape, but this time he didn't make it easy going..

"Hold on !"

I was breathing too fast.. He held my hand and pressed it against the wall, " I said , hold on!"

I closed my eyes as his face was too close to me..

" I am not letting go.. not this time.."

I stared at him.. he looked so damn hot that I couldn't help biting my lip.

" why are you like this ?" he couldn't even finish the line , but he got my lips inside his mouth..

I swear even fire couldn't burn me like this , the way he started..

His whole body was pressing me against the wall that I felt like he might have broken this..

My fingers were between his slender fingers.. and within a moment , my body gave up completely..

Wait, I am lying,, I didn't even try to give up.. God knows, even my last drop of blood also wanted to feel his touch.. I am a sinful woman, aren't I ?

I let my tongue exploring inside his mouth,, I wonder what he had in his dinner.. just honey ?

Suddenly he stopped moving his mouth and I got shy, so I pulled my tongue out.. We both were breathing so fast.. He chuckled, " Aren't you gonna remind me of any sin ?"

"hmm.. It gonna be sin if we stop"

"well.. whatever.."

In the next moment, I got his fingers inside my hair.. My tongue started fighting over his one..

There's  an attractive sin always keeps us wanting to live more in this world..

It's love.. don't you think, Kim Jongin ?