5SOS Preferences

❁ Why Don't You Love Me {2/2}

Calum:

"Why don't you love me?" You whispered as you stared at a picture of Calum on your phone. This is getting worse day by day, your feelings for him keep growing and this is just too much. You know that feeling you get when you're filled up with so much emotion inside, you want to let it all out to feel relief? That's exactly how you feel right now, except this one is just too risky. The given emotion is love, love reserved only for Calum Thomes Hood. Your feelings for him are full to the brim, and you needed to tell someone, so that you can finally calm down. You're getting restless because of this, and you don't know what to do. Of course, you couldn't talk to Calum about it, so you approached the only other person you would trust the biggest secrets with - Luke. You cuddled up to him because he was this huge teddy bear, but he preferred to be called penguins. Cue the eye rolling. "So, what did you want to talk about, Y/N?" Luke asked, as he began to draw patterns on your back with his finger. "Um, can I talk to you about this guy I really like?" You asked, looking up at him for confirmation. You could see the curiosity in his eyes as he quirked an eyebrow, but he just nodded. "So, there's this guy and he's pretty cute. We're really close, but I've been in love with him for quite some time now, and my feelings for him are starting to overflow. I needed to tell someone because I'm getting restless over this." You tell him. "Who is this guy anyways?" You took a deep breath as you exhaled, "Calum," But he didn't scream in surprise or anything. You looked up at him curiously and he just smiled. "Took you long enough, I've known that for a long time now. I can see the way you look at him, I don't get why he's so fucking blind not to see how you look at him. Michael and Ashton even know!" You groaned inwardly, because you didn't know it was that fucking obvious. You took note of how you shouldn't stare at him too much, everyone sees how obvious it is, except Calum, and you. Wow. "I don't know what to do, Luke. I really love him but I'm scared he won't feel the same way," You say sadly. He just looks into your eyes and kisses your forehead, "Love is all about taking the risk of falling and getting hurt. But you'll never know until you try," he says with a wink. You shoot him an incredulous look and asked, "Wow, that was as deep as your voice. Who are you and what have you done with Luke Hemmings?" You began to shake him violently but he just continued to laugh. He stopped a second later and grew silent, "I'll leave you two to talk," he says before excusing himself. You peered behind you to see a pissed-looking Calum, who had his fists clenched and he was red from anger. "What the fuck were you and Luke doing?" He yelled, glaring at you intensely. He's never been this mad at you before, it was scary as shit and this is new to you, you didn't know what to do or how to react. "I-We weren't doing anything-" "Don't lie to me! I fucking saw you two cuddling and being all intimate and shit." He slammed his fist on the wall and a loud banging sound was heard. "Do you love him?" He asked, looking down at the floor this time with a grimace. "No, I don't love him-" "That's bullshit, Y/N!" "I don't love him because I love you, okay?!" You screamed, having enough of the anger directed at the two of you. You instantly regretted blurting it out and began to take it back, "N-no, I-I meant-" His grimace turned into a smirk, and he folded his arms across his chest. "There's the answer I was waiting for," He approached you and kissed your forehead. "I love you too, Y/N. I always have, and I always will," He says, before hugging you tightly, never wanting to let you go.

Ashton:

Falling asleep as you cried has been a daily thing for you since the breakup, and you were getting so tired of all this pain and hurt, you wanted yourself to feel absolutely nothing at all. You wanted to feel numb, but you couldn't because you were still too in love with Ashton. Your eyes landed on your calendar and realized today was the day his band returns to Sydney. You wanted to see him again, but you didn't know if seeing him again will be good for you. You didn't want him to see this trainwreck of a girl he used to know, and you didn't want to break down in tears in front of him. But your desire to see him was much greater than that, so you decided to go to the airport to see him. You are still friends, after all, right? At the airport, you could see all the fans trying to catch a glimpse of them as they arrived, and you knew they were there when they started squealing and giggling. After about twenty minutes, they finally appear and your heart stopped at seeing his face for the first time in three months. His eyes found yours and the two of you just stare at each other, until you decided to walk over to him. "Hi," you simply said with a small smile. He still looked at you in shock and he looked down, sadly. "I-I'm sorry," he says. "I can't do this anymore." Your heart began to break at his words, because those was the exact same words you expected to hear. He looks up at you and whispered, "I need you, I need you back. I can't pretend like this isn't killing me anymore, I'm still in love with you, Y/N," Your eyes widened when he pressed his lips against yours, and you could feel all the emotions he felt for you in the kiss. Longing, passion, love, sadness. You kissed him back softly, conveying all your feelings for him in the kiss, like he did. Once he pulled away, he puts his forehead against yours and said, "I wanted to do that so badly. That was a mistake, Y/N. I never should have broken up with you, I just felt like I needed to because you weren't the type to handle long distance relationships-" "I don't care, as long as you're back here with me, I'm good," you say, silencing him with another kiss.