ambience [h.s]

CHAPTER 9.

I loved the apartment, it was perfect and affordable. It had one huge bedroom that already had two beds and a bathroom across the hall. There was a doorway that lead to an area with a couch and a TV. The kitchen was right behind that and there was a table in the kitchen and a dining area. It wasn't too fancy or expensive and was extremely cozy. We signed the lease that day and had to have our things in their by tomorrow. Harry looked quite bored the entire time, which serves him right. We were all back in the hotel, Diana packing up everything and me shoving everything I had into a suitcase while Harry drinks and eats all the food in our mini fridge. I stop him when he gets to my secret stash of Hostess products and Dr. Pepper, along with much candy. He pouts and mutters “defensive much?”. I then tell him to shut the fuck up, and that I am possessive with my food. I am shoving my food in one of my two suitcases when my phone rings. When I see the caller ID is my mom I grab Diana’s arm and hold the phone up. 

“You got this.” She says with an encouraging smile and nod. I swallow and answer. I feel Harry’s eyes passing back and forth like a confused ping pong ball. 

“Hello?” I say. 

“Rose! You made an appearance in my magazine this morning! Care to explain your outburst?” Her voice is loud and disappointed. 

“No.” I say. Diana gives me a look. 

“Rose stop that. I just want to know what is going on.” Desperation seeps into her voice and through the speaker on my phone. 

“Read the magazine.” 

“Oh, so you're homeless and dating one of two celebrities?” I hate it when she uses sarcasm. 

“Stop! You can’t ground me anymore! You can’t tell me what a bad kid I am anymore! You can’t force me into therapy anymore! I don't have to do anything you say anymore!” I yell, my voice breaking at the end, the tears threatening me like she did all those years. Harry’s eyes are slightly wider than before, but I don't care what he thinks.

“Rose Adrianna! I am concerned for you!” She shrieks, her anger growing. 

“Why?” I lower my voice again, back to normal, and try to regain a steady breathing pace.

“You got into a fight at a bar! It’s bad enough that you are drinking again, but another fight? I thought you were over making others hurt.” Here they come. The subtle insults. I hate them. 

“I am not drinking like before! Didn’t you watch the video! Didn’t you hear what she said? Didn’t you see what she did!” I scream, the tears sneaking out of my eyes uncontrolled. I let them fall. 

“You lashed out. I am disappointed.”

“Fucking good! I don't give a shit about you or your fucking feelings!” I scream.

“Rose I am sorry but I am just trying to guide you.” She seems sad. 

“Go guide a dick into your mouth.” I have stopped crying.  

“Rose please stop. I am just trying to help.” 

“Just like you tried to help when you sent me away in seventh grade!? Like you tried to help junior year when you almost sent me to jail?! Great, because I love your help!” My voice is poisonous, I hope it makes her heartburn.

“Rose you have to forgive me for my mistakes.”

“I don’t have to do anything.” And with that I hang up. Diana looks at me with sad eyes and pulls me into her famous hug. Her frail arms comfort me like they have been doing for six years. 

“Forget her. She’s awful and you really don't need her.” Diana mutters into my neck. I close my eyes and try to drain my feelings. I pull away and smile at her. 

“I know what I need. I need a happy day, or a fun day. Whatever the hell you want to call it. Any ideas?” I lock down all my emotions as Diana thinks. I can’t let them float and swim to the surface every time my past is brought up. She shakes her head after a while. 

“I do.” Harry speaks up from his spot in the corner. “It’s kind of dumb but it should be fun.”

“Well?” I ask, waiting for him to continue. 

“The zoo? They invited me to hold the baby tigers or something. I don't know.” He says. He seems embarrassed. “But there are going to be fans there, that are going to take pictures of me and the tigers. It starts in an hour and Lou is coming to my apartment in thirty. But if you guys want to hold the tigers you can come.” I smile at his cute embarrassment over this. I nod and look at Diana, who I know wants to hold the tigers. She nods excitedly. 

“Let me change so nobody thinks I’m homeless this time.” Diana laughs but Harry rolls his eyes like a bitch. I dig through my suitcase till I find what I am looking for, which is a pair of jean shorts that are quite short. The pockets peak out of the bottom. I grab my black converse and throw on a white tee with the word rad right on the front. I throw on an army jacket because the wind is blowing outside. I leave my hair in the ratty bun that it’s in already because I can’t even deal with it right now so the public is going to have to. Diana grabs my hand and we walk out the door after Harry. 

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kind of just a chapter so you can see rose's real issues are with her mom despite what happened, which you will figure out in time

NEXT CHAPTER IS SO CUTE ADJFKHDSAL 

-sage