My oh secret diary

James returnes

August-24-1996

Omg I don't know what to do anymore I'm super in love with Brandon but James still keeps popping in my head grrrrr. I been getting very depressed lately and I don't know why and I been getting really bad pains in my stomach and I been drinking and smoking more trying to get this feeling to go away but it won't. I don't even know why I'm still thinking of James when I have a great boyfriend who's an amazing kisser. Well I don't really know if James is a good kisser but beside that why is James in my head he hurt me really bad but I still love him. He was my best friend then he kissed me and ever thing changed I don't really know what happen. Me and James are not that close anymore I don't really have anyone to talk to any more I wanna give up but I can give up on Brandon. I wish I was close to James but I'm not. I really don't know what's going on but I know that I was never that close to James in the first place he always punched me and i know he's pushing me away. I heard some rumors that he's gay again but I don't know what to think anymore I just wanna be in my only little bubble with Me, Ella and Brandon and that's it.

August-25 1996

Brandon meets me by the doors of the school and grabs my hand and spins me around in to a hug "hey beautiful" he says with a sweet smile. I kiss him on the check and we walk into the school. James walk up to me and ask if i can chat i said sure we walk in a different direction of Brandon. violet i miss you i want you back i need you in my life im lost with out you. James no im happy with brandon im with someone who wants me to be me and to be happy all u want is for me to be this fake Barbie doll i scream. Why do you want him all he wants is to have sex with you and when he gets it he'll be done with you. I slap james. You no what its not fair that your alound to be happy and i have to sit here and wait till you  magical turn straight and its not fair im gonna stay with Brandon till i dont love him no more and james. Yea james says  "never talk to me again " i  say walking away.

August-26-1996

Me and brandon were lay in his bed and Brandon ask if i was okay "yea just thinking of stuff but im fine" Brandon leans over and kisses me vivi i love you and your an amazing girl and if james cant see how pefect you are then hes crazy. Brandon your pefect and i kiss him. Brandon roles me over on top of him and we start to make out. Then he start to pull of my shirt he roles me over and he starts to kiss down my body till he gets to my pants he unbuttoned them and pulls them off...

August-27 1996

I wake up half naked in Brandons bed i get up and i put on my clothes and i walk in the kitchen and Brandons by the stove cooking food "good morning love" he say he walkes over to me and gives me a huge kiss well good morning i tellshim. He tells me to sit at the table and he brings me food and he sits down at the tables and we start to talk.