The Secret Confessions Of A High School Senior

I'm set free

Twenty-nine days.

That's all it took.

It took me
Twenty-nine days to realize
We weren't meant to be.
It was great
And I was in love,
But sometimes
Love isn't enough. 

I was head over heels for you,
Blinded by love,
I didn't see what type of person you were.

You and your words
Were like chains 
On my wrist and ankles.
They weighed me down,
They changed me. 

You wore a mask around my family
Then took it off with me.
When the sun went down,
Your rage rose.

Everything I did
Was an issue for you.
According to you,
I am not allowed to
Have emotions,
Feelings,
Experience anger
Nor sadness.

I talk to you 
And your friends,
But I'm not sure,
Who is more twisted.

You are like a road.
You have your twists
And turns
Bumps and hills.
All you seemed to me 
In the end,
Was a giant pothole. 

I got stuck falling into that hole
Because of your
Abusive chains.
I fell further into a dark pit
While I was shackled to you. 

I wasn't myself with you.
I had totiptoe on
Thin ice.
Watch my words,
Not have an attitude,
Can't harmlessly look at other guys,
Couldn't do anything.
I was your prisoner.

In the beginning,
I felt beautiful,
Loved,
Wanted and needed.
It was all a ruse. 
You got what you wanted.
I slept with the enemy,
And believed every word he said.
Too bad it was all a lie.

You had me hooked,
Like a fish on a line.
You told me what I wanted to hear,
You played with my weaknesses,
Stepped on my toes,
Elbowed me in the face,
Hurting me in every way you can.
I didn't mean anything to you,
Did I?

I was just your puppet,
And you played me like a fiddle.
You were angry
When I saw through you
And your facade,
You became twisted and demented.

I finally had enough.
You put too much 
Stress and pressure
On me.
Forced me to play mother and housewife.
Forced me to submit to your psychosis.
Put your life in my hands.
Told me that I was the only thing that
Stopped you from
Committing suicide.
I should not be able to
Play God.
I should not have the power to
Decide whether you
Live or die.

I was your girlfriend
Not your housekeeper
Personal shopper
Your mother
Or reason for living.
You didn't appreciate me
And you used me.

I have enough of your games.
I broke the chains that bound me
To you.
I washed myself of you
I rid myself of all the things
That remind me 
And tie me to you.
I'm set free