Harry Styles: You stared down at your hands as you over heard the conversation Louis and Harry were having in the living room. You were currently in Harrys room waking up from a nap when you instantly heard them talking. You didn't mean to be nosy but your name was mentioned and you couldn't help but listen in. "Have you two have sex yet?" Louis asked asked Harry. "No, I mean we've made out and I have felt her lovely boobs but every time I go to take her shirt off she stops me, I understand if she doesn't want to have sex but it's been five months already," Harry groaned silently. You closed your eyes as you sighed out deeply, you knew sooner or later this was going to happen. It's not that you didn't want to have sex with Harry, you were just scared out of your mind that all those memories you worked hard to over come were going to flash before your eyes and ruin the moment. You didn't realize your were crying until a few tear drops fell on to your hands, "[Y/N]? Babe why are you crying?" Harry asked as he gently embraced you. You didn't even realize he had stopped talking to Lou and walked into the room. Having Harry beside you made you cry harder, he gently hummed into your ear to try and coax you to calm down. After a few minutes of silently sobbing into his chest you managed to stop the waterfall of tears and calm down somewhat. "You want to talk about it?" He encouraged as you wiped your tears away. You drew in a shaky breath and swift through your mind trying to find the right words to say. "Harry,...I- I heard you and Lou talking," You softly spoke. "Babe I'm so so-" "Harry just listen, I'm not mad at you. It's not that I don't want to have sex with you," You explained as you drew in another breath. "It's just, I'm scared because I don't want to mess up our first time together," You told him. "I don't understand, why would you mess it up?" He asked running his hands through your hair lightly. "I might scream or cry or push you off I don't know, Harry I was raped a long time ago," You whispered the last part slightly. It was silent for a moment but Harry quickly embraced you closer "You don't have to ever try to conform yourself to what I want, when ever you are ready I am, I don't care when. I love you regardless," He said as he softly kissed your temple.
Liam Payne: You stifled a laugh as Liam puffed out his cheeks and made his signature monkey face. You absolutely loved when he did it, it was just so cute. "Aw Liam bear, you are so cute," You gushed to him as you squished his cheeks together. "Oh stop it you," He said blushing, you smiled and pecked him softly on the lips. You were visiting your hometown with Liam because it's been little over a year since you have so you two decided to take a trip. You guys were just walking around town minding your own and just enjoying yourselves. You and Liam kept laughing at things you found amusing when you suddenly bumped into someone by accident "Oh gosh, I'm so sorry," You said looking up, as soon as you did however your heart stopped. Your mouth went dry as you looked up at someone who you hadn't seen in years. Liams eyebrows forward in concern as he notice your demeanor change. "Well look who we have here," The dark haired boy teasingly said. Your eyes shifted down as you stepped closer to Liam. "Is this your new boyfriend [Y\N]? 'cause I'll be glad to let him know how you are in the sack," He said raising his eyebrows up and down a few times. You choked back your tears as Liam let your hand go "Hey there now buddy, you better watch what you say before I make you," Liam threaten, his shoulders and arms flexing visibly. The guy smirked but walked away quickly, Liam turned you to him and studied you over making sure you weren't harmed "You okay babe?" He finally asked, you shook your head no and stayed strong by holding your tears back. "You know how I never drink Liam? It's because of him... When I was a freshman in high school I went to a party and I started drinking for the first time and, and he-he," You swallowed back the dry lump in your throat and straightened up. "He raped me," You finally said as you felt a heavy weight lift off your shoulders. Liam cupped your face and stared intensely in your eyes "You won't ever have to worry about anybody ever hurting you, not as long as I'm alive," He promised.
Louis Tomlinson: Your jaw was clenched tightly as the comedic on TV started making rape jokes. You loved jokes, hell you loved laughing and just acting stupid but something you never tolerated was joking about rape, it really did hit home when people did. Worst of all your best mates and even your boyfriend were laughing at the joke. You weren't mad at them, it was understandable to laugh at something that you have never experienced or take personal. Your arms folded as the audience on the TV laughed, it was so mind boggling how people were just okay with the jokes. You weren't going to cry, you had your fair time of crying from that one night now you were stronger then ever and could over come that obstacle in life but it was still sort of a sore subject. When the boys had calmed down from laughing Louis looked over at you with a grin "I'm surprised you didn't piss yourself laughing [Y/N]," Lou said as he wrapped his arm around your shoulders. You looked over at Louis not amused "Rape is not funny Lou," You simply stated "Yeah but it was just a joke, just for laughs," He said somewhat confused. "Rape is not a joke!' You snapped as you stood up from the couch. All the boys stared at you surprised since usually you were easy going and always in a fit of giggles. You turned quickly on your heel and walked quickly into the bedroom you shared with your boyfriend. As soon as you entered the room Louis did shortly after "Babe, I'm sorry I made you upset,' Louis apologized "It wasn't you Lou, I just hate when people think rape is funny, It's not, it's real and people go through it every fucking day," You said as you ran your hands through your curls. "Were you...were you, uh?" Louis said not wanting to actually say the word. You stared at him and sighed as you nodded a yes "I'm sorry," He apologized again but this time only because you had to go through that trauma. You shrugged and leaned into Louis' embrace "Let's go put jelly in Hazzas socks, shall we?" He suggested smiling widely, you smiled along and stood up quickly.
Niall Horan: You nearly chocked on the Orange Carrot juice you were drinking, you were absolutely gobsmacked. How the hell did their fans even find out, how could they? You were just browsing through tumblr when you decided to search your name up at this moment you wish you didn't. You had found a post about you and what happened to you when you were fourteen 'I just found out that [Y/N] [L/N], Niall Horans girlfriend was raped when she was 14!!!! Omg...' there was more to the post but you didn't even want to read any more. You were so freaked out at the mere thought of these girls finding out your most personal information. You clicked on the notes, which were many, and started scrolling through the comments. Again you wished you hadn't, tears were brimming your eyes as you read the rude comments 'what a whore!' 'she deserved it' 'Nialls princess isn't so innocent anymore', and they just kept getting worst and worst. Everything you read played over and over in your head, some of the things actually hurt you more because you had thought those same thoughts when you were getting through therapy. You sniffled loudly as tears leaked from your eyes, you would give anything at this moment to just disappear from the face of the earth. "Don't feel ashamed princess," Niall croaked from behind you. You nearly jumped as you turned around to see your boyfriend almost as equally as upset as you. "I read it," He answered. You sobbed unexpectedly and covered your face, Niall quickly uncovered your face and started kissing every inch of it "I still think your beautiful, perfect, innocent, wonderful, amazing and I love you," He cooed to you while he gave you a penguin kiss. You smiled slightly and sighed "You are so perfect Niall, I love you too,' You managed to say as you leaned your forehead against his.
Zayn Malik: Everyone laughed as Louis attempted to do a hand stand on the grass. The guys and a few friends were gathered in the backyard while playing truth or dare. You were sitting next to your good friend and crush Zayn, you two had been getting closer and closer the last few weeks and not to toot your own horn or anything but you were almost sure he was going to ask you to be his girlfriend soon. Louis sat down and spin the bottle, you watched it spin and spin until it gradually slowed down and landed, surprise, surprise on you. You groaned loudly and shook your head, there was no way you were choosing dare, not if Louis was going to make the dare. You looked up at the cheeky boy and groaned louder when you saw him evilly smirk "Truth or dare?" He asked raising an eyebrow, "Truth" You sighed out. "When did you lose your virginity, with who, and did you like it?" Louis asked. You stayed silent as you closed your eyes, you felt everyone stare at you. Damn it, why couldn't you just pick dare you thought as you opened your eyes again. You suddenly wanted to throw up from the nervousness you felt "I uh, I was twelve," You swallowed and saw everyone's surprised faces, making you feel ashamed. "I don't know who it was and no I absolutely hated it," You whispered. Everyone stayed silent trying to figure out what you said. You slowly stood up and made your way into the house and into the kitchen, you grabbed a glass of water and shakily brought it to your lips. You could only imagine what they were thinking of you at the moment, they probably thought you were some stupid whore. "[Y/N]? You okay?" You heard Zayn ask as he entered the kitchen. You put the glass cup down and looked up at Zayn, you couldn't lie to him. "It's not like I wanted to Zayn, I wasn't strong enough and I don't know where he took me, and I-" Your voice was cracking as your eyes watered. Zayn quickly strode toward you and hugged you to his chest "It's okay, sweetheart. You're okay now, I got you," You whispered into your ear as you silently cried into his chest.
**Note: This was sort of hard for me to write only because of what I feel strongly about rape. Rape is not okay, no matter what anybody says it is not okay to rape someone under any conditions. I just want you all to know that if you ever find yourself in a situation as that (God forbid that ever happens to any of you) I plea with you to try your best to run, scream, attack, anything to protect yourself. No one deserves to get rape and no one should even think of raping someone. It is not your fault, it is not because of what you wear, it is not because of how you look, or because you were drunk, you should never be forced to do anything you don't want to do. Thanks again for taking the time to read through my preferences, take care, stay beautiful, stay sassy, and stay classy x
