I Wanna Save You Tonight

Chapter 4: LIZ

I saw my bestfriend left and screamed like a little girl when that british boyband walk out of the hotel. Ena and I were just going back to our room after that trip around Manila. I instantly felt guilty because I ruined all of this for her. I know she understands me being like this because of my dad but I still feel that I am not a good friend to her. But suddenly the blonde guy I bumped into earlier seems like heading my way, hindi pa ba sapat yung apology ko sa kanya kanina? Do I need to make a public apology? Ugh, I felt sick and I don’t know what to do.

“Liz, bakit?” I didn’t realize that Ena was with me again.

“Ahh, wala parang sumama lang yung pakiramdam ko. Tara na?”

“Sige, wala na rin naman sila eh.”

“Liz, pwedeng magtanong? Kilala mo ba si Niall?” Ena asked after we got into our room.

“Huh? Sino yun?”

“Yung lumalapit sayo kanina. Akala ko kasi kilala mo siya. Ang weird lang na bigla ka niyang lalapitan kung hindi lang siya tinawag ni Zayn.”

“Ahhh. Yun ba yung blonde?” Ena nodded. “Kasi ‘di ba nag-away tayo kanina? Nabunggo ko siya sa hallway nung tumatakbo ako. Nagpakilala siya at nagsorry ako. Ena, di ko naman kailangan mag-public apology dba? Nag-sorry naman ako sa kanya kanina.”

“Talaga, Liz?” biglang nabuhayan si Ena pero nalungkot ulit. “Buti ka pa nakausap mo na siya. Samantalang ako yung fan pero di ko pa sila nakakausap.”

“Ikaw na lang ang kumausap sa kanila, hindi ako interesado sa british.”

“Hindi british si Niall. Seems like he’s exempted to your british hate. He lives in Mullingar and he’s Irish.”

“Ahhhhh, ganun ba?” I felt that my cheeks are betraying me. I wonder what’s wrong with me because that got me excited and I’ve never felt this way before.

“Uyyyy, nagbblush!” Ena started to tease me.

“Ena, I’ve been thinking about you kaninang lumabas tayo. Feeling ko naging selfish ako dahil iniisip ko lang is yung pag-ayaw ko sa mga british. Sorry dahil hindi ko naisip na isa to sa mga pangarap mo. Yung makita mo sila, at makausap. I should have understand you because I’m your bestfriend.” I changed the topic and Ena started to cry in front of me. “Wag ka ng umiyak, hindi na tayo uuwi. Manonood na tayo ng concert nila. Nung nakita kita kanina na parang bata, I felt guilty because I felt like I am your bestfriend and ako pa yung sisira ng lahat ng to.”

“Liz, I don’t know what to say. I’m just glad you finally understand me. Salamaat.”

We ended crying in each other’s arms. Natutuwa rin ako na pinagbigyan ko siya sa lahat ng kabaliwan niya. Maybe she’s obsessed but we’re still bestfriends after all.

“Hello, sweetie, how was your day with Ena?”

“Hi mom. It was fine,” I told my mom what happened between Ena and I.

“You did the right thing, Alice.”

“Maaa, how many times will I tell that it is Liz not Alice?” my temper is just so bad.

“Nagbibiro lang ako. Namimiss lang kita at wala akong kasama sa bahay. I love you, sweetie. Go to bed soon, okay?”

“Yes, ma. Nauna na pong natulog si Ena. Dumaan kasi si Tito Miguel kanina just to check on us but he left immediately. Madami po ata siyang gagawin.”

“Okay, sweetie. Just call me when you need me. See you soon. Goodnight,” my mom ended the call and I felt alone. I miss her too.

I didn’t go to bed like what my mom said. I went outside and got to the roof deck of the hotel. I was surprised when I saw again the blonde guy sitting on one of the bench and eating potato chips. I wonder why he’s here.

“Hey, it’s you again,” Niall was the first one to say a word. I think he’s very talkative.

“Uhm, ye-e-es. I’ll leave if you don’t want me here. I’m sorry for bothering you,” I said apologizing. Why do I need to apologize? I didn’t do anything wrong.

“Noo, you can stay.”

I sat on the other bench and started to gaze upon the sky. Everytime I do this, I always think about my dad. My mom told me to do so. I know I hate my dad but I miss him too. I wonder where exactly in England he stays.

“You always do that?” Niall broke the silence. I was too busy looking at the stars that I didn’t notice he’s watching me.

“Not really. My mom taught me to do this whenever I miss someone.”

“You miss who?”

“My dad.”

We were both silent again until I left him because suddenly I felt tired and sleepy.