I don't know what to make of it.
Colby is amazing. I don't deserve him, but the thought of him no longer by my side makes me feel pain. I don't know why, but in this short amount of time, we are so close.
Possibly triggering. Suicidal tendencies. However, this is essential to the story so if you can, please do read it.
I haven't seen him in 2 weeks. I have missed school. I haven't texted, haven't called. He doesn't know why. He probably thinks I'm blowing him off. The truth is, I miss him so much.
I have been in the mental hospital. I tried committing suicide again. (I wont give details) I have been in my feelings a lot in the past three weeks. Every since Colby said that I am the best person ever, I have doubted him and myself. How in the world am I the best?
If you don't believe that I am in my feelings, read this:
Haven't I told you this before?
You suck. You are the worst person ever to live.
There are a lot of people better than you.
Quit sitting in your room, feeling pity for yourself,
just leave this house you call a home, leave Earth and nobody will miss you.
Dad left you because he didn't care.
All your old friends left because they didn't care.
Look around, is there anyone there
that cares?
No.
you are all alone,
Yeah Colby's there,
but does he actually love you?
I'm sure he is lying,
Bye bye.
See, I told you.
YOU ARE READING
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FanficCOMPLETED. **includes bullying, depression, cutting, suicidal tendencies, anxiety, and other triggers are involved. Readers discretion is advised** (Lower case intended) Sam is bullied, Colby is popular. These two somehow become best friends. When t...
