Hate.
A bad feeling.
Negative thoughts about something or someone.
You hate your phone for not working. You hate your hair because everyday is a bad hair day.
You hate your best friend or your boyfriend for leaving you.
You hate yourself for just being who you are.
It's not ok to feel that way, but sometimes it's necessary.
This is the feeling that most of the time puts people into depression. I know because I experienced it. I learned from my mistakes and I tried so hard to not repeat them that I did it anyway. And yeah, I hate myself for that.
But I don't hate myself for the good things I've done. I haven't got anything in return, but I'm kinda ok with that. I'd say that I'm used to it.
I have to admit that now I'm a different person and I don't hate people as much as I did before. I was a shy person and I misjudged people before I got to know them and that was a mistake.
Now, I learn about that person before I have to say anything about him/her, bad or good. It's better that way. That way I got to meet an amazing person. At the beginning, there were less conversations than now and not so interesting. Back then, we have just met and we didn't trust each other that much to talk about all the things that came to our heads. Just normal things, usual one.
Now, I have a new friend and I'm so happy about that. I know I now have to speak about hate, but I got to like him just through some message exchange. And musical tastes. And some voice. But not in person. And we aren't even from the same city.
Sometimes we just have a little luck that turns into something beautiful when you expect the least. And this is happening when we don't misjudge people from the first messages. We mantain a long conversation and try to see the best in them.
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