Love him to the moon and back <3

my life in hell

telling him wasn't a good idea after all .

everytime i passe next to his friends i felt tha all of them are talcking and laughing ... why did he do that ? i was thinking he's mature enough to act normal even if i told him .

my school life turned into hell , i walk in the hallway ashamed and scared , people staring at me ... did i do something wrong ? why are people so mean to me ?

all this question was answered day by day ...

the second i turn my back to someone bullshits start coming out of there mouths .. i couldn't stand it anymore .

do i have to hate him after all he did to me ? the most important question , can i ? .

well NO , i couldn't , the more people juge me the more i hate myself for taking such an stupid decision but why not him ?

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why can't i hate him ?

i don't know , seing him in school laughing and having fun , make me happy for a second , make me forget all my problemes , but make me sad for not be able to talk laugh have fun as his friend .

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