Sat in the back lounge I gently twisted the top of the grinder clockwise, the marijuana crumbling into fine leaves and the familiar smell of the weed seeping into the air. I inhaled the scent longingly as I tipped the ground down weed into a small plastic bag. I gently shook the mind altering plant leaves over the tobacco in the rolling paper and then I rolled. Em was laid with his feet draped over my lap. I ran my tongue along the edge of the rolling paper and sealed the joint shut.
"Here you go space cadet" I said, handing the joint to Em
"You roll the best joints, I miss smoking with you buddy"
"Don't even, no smoking, no drinking, no soft cheese, no caffeine. Pregnancy is a hoot"
"You're nearly at the finish line. And I know you miss how things used to be but I just know you're gonna be the most amazing Mom".
He leaned back, lighting his joint and disappearing into a cloud of smoke. I stood up and bent down to give him a kiss on the cheek.
"I don't want to get high off your fumes, I'm to going bed"
"Night Pops, love you boo*
"Love you boo, let me know how it goes with Shy"
"We've been talking a lot, she's flying out to meet me in Paris at the end of tour, we're going to go to Mont Saint Michel and disappear for a bit"
"Ah you kids" I said, bopping him on the nose as I walked out of the back lounge, gently closing the door behind me.
Rem was sat playing Switch with Andy from Crown, they were both drinking Jack Daniels and getting increasingly rowdy. I took some sneaky pics and posted them to my stories.
Seb interrupted my posting with a drunken hug
"How's my gorgeous niece or nephew doing? I can't believe Rem is going to be a Dad. Holy crap"
"Baby is fine, you are drunk as a skunk though"
"No I'm fine" he said, slurring his words and stumbling backwards as the bus turned a corner.
"You're not fine Seb, go to bed dude"
"You're not my mom, I'm enjoying a drink and it's enjoyable "
"Ok buddy, goodnight, you aren't making any sense"
The bus hit a speed bump and Seb was thrown forward, covering me in a full glass of gin and tonic and head butting me in the process.
"Woah Seb, not cool" I said, trying to stand up to wipe myself down.
"What's going on?"
Rem was now looking at us, he looked pissed off
"Rem, it was nothing, Seb just spilled his drink"
"For fucks sake Seb, Apologise"
"You fucking apologise you cheating piece of shit"
Rem's eyes widened, fury filled his face. I looked at Seb
"What are you talking about Seb?"
"Ask your hubby"
"Rem? What did he mean? Please tell me this is a fucking joke? What the fuck?"
"Poppy.... I"
"You better start talking right now. One of you tell me what the fuck this is about"
"Rem kissed that model Monica in Florida, she was friends with that girl I was seeing for a while"
I stood there, my heart breaking slowly into fragments. I felt the air leave my lungs. Rem launched himself at Seb and they began having a full on brawl, pulling at each other, slamming into the desk and the side of the bunks.
"Stop it!!!" I screamed
Em came tearing out of the back lounge, he pulled at Rem whilst Andy and Hayden tried to control Seb. Em got Rem into an arm lock, his chest was heaving, blood was oozing from a cut on his forehead and his knuckles were bloody.
I pushed past them all, going to the driver cabin. James pulled the bus over to the side of the road and I got out, Rem came running after me.
"Go away Rem, I have nothing to say to you"
"It's not what you think, she kissed me, I told her I was married. Seb walked in and misread the situation, I promise it's not like that"
I looked at him, I could see the desperation in his eyes, the pain written across his face. I don't know why but I believed him.
"Please Pop, say something"
"I believe you"
Surprise and relief filled his face. He took a step and pulled me into his arms, crushing his body against me.
"I promise you on the life of our child that I would never ever do a single thing to hurt you. I love you more than life itself"
He stood back, cupping my face in his hands, searching my face for proof that I really believed him. I placed my hands on his hips, the warmth of his naked torso radiating against me.
"I believe you" I repeated, looking him straight in the eyes
"Let's go to bed"
He pulled me close to him and we walked back onto the bus.
Seb looked up at me "I'm sorry guys, I don't know what came over me"
"It's ok Seb, don't worry about it"
"Rem I'm really sorry"
The two brothers hugged it out and I walked back to the bunk, crawling inside and pulling the covers over me. Rem joined me moments later, pulling me into him and kissing the top of my head.
