Baby - A Johnny Seo Fan Fiction

Chapter 1

T/W: Swearing, verbal abuse, mentions of child abuse and alcoholism, racism, homophobic slurs

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"You turn that damn foreign shit off or I swear I'll beat the shit out of you again!"

Without missing a beat, I immediately switched the music off and stuffed my phone under my pillow. I'm definitely not making stupid decisions any time soon.

The bedroom door swung open and my breath hitched. My father loomed in the doorway like the monster that kids would say lived in the closet. Honestly, I wish I could see him any other way but the drinking and the abuse frightens me so much I revert back into that little girl, crying over the monster peeping through the slats in the wardrobe door. It's been 10 years since my mother passed and while I originally thought that the alcohol was a temporary solution, it became a permanent problem that hurt my body more than his own.

"If I had my earphones back I wouldn't need to play music out loud."

I could tell what he was thinking. That was the wrong answer.

"Don't you talk to me that way! What do you need that shit for? Those chinese faggots have ruined you, y'know. You should respect me."

"I was practising my dances, Dad." My voice barely a whisper, overtaken in volume by my heartbeat that drummed with fear.

"Practising for what? Have you not got it into your thick skull yet that I'm not gonna tolerate that shit in my fucking house?" He stepped towards me and ripped my NCT posters from the walls.

He was right. What was I practising for? That one day it might come in handy that I know some k-pop dances? In what reality would that ever be useful? Could I ever be a k-pop star doing my own choreography rather than copy the likes of BTS and Blackpink? Not likely. The stars we know and love train for years after they start in their teens and I am definitely too late for that. Either way, I'd rather hold on to an impossible dream than continue living a nightmare.

"Dad... I've been thinking..."

"Well that's not a good fucking sign is it."

"I-I think it's about time I move out." I stuttered as I sat back onto my bed and braced for impact.

He stood there with his teeth gritted and eyes scowling at me. Still, embers began to burn within me and courage chose my next words.

"I'm 18 now, I should be able to make my own choices and live my own life."

"You can leave when I tell you you can fucking leave!"

A sharp sting appeared across my cheek as he slapped me. I raised my hand to caress the burning skin and found my wrist in his grip, twisting it sharply.

"You should be grateful for everything I've done for you." He screamed before storming out and the familiar locking sound echoed through my silent room.

Hot tears streamed down my face as I tried to stifle my breaths. A prisoner in my own home; this house should've been my safe haven that protected me from harm but in fact I was more afraid of the one holding me captive.

I grabbed my phone and stared at my notifications, desperately hoping for an escape from the tragedy that was real life. Then almost as if I had conjured it up, I saw it.

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I was in complete shock at what I saw. An opportunity so close to where I live and so soon, it was almost too good to be true.

My fingers dialled my best friend's number before I had time to think over my decision and it didn't take long for her to answer.

"Hey girl, wanna do me a huge favour?"

"Oh hey! Yeah, what's up? You sound like you've been crying. Is everything okay?"

"Just my dad, you know how it is... You can drive right?"

"I'll kill him if he's hurt you again! But oooo where are we going?"

"I think my practising is finally gonna pay off"

"I don't know what that means but I'm down for whatever you need hun. When do we leave?"

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(A/N): Hope this was an alright start for you guys! Let me know what you think and I'll post another update shortly! - Livesey :)