R U E | Tin × Can |

First First

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I cursed out loud when I suddenly bumped into something. I almost lost my balance but still managed to keep my stand.

I looked at someone who's in front of me. A guy with a small face stared at me like I am an alien. Did I look that bad? I don't think so.

He's wearing a blue and white jacket and a white short. He's an athlete. A varsity player. I'm not sure on what sports though.

He didn't look hurt from our collision but he seems like he was about to cry.

He just stared for a while and I felt uncomfortable so I tried to call his attention.

"Hey."

Like someone who came back to reality, he immediately touched my arms and checked it.

"Ow, sorry! I didn't mean to bump on you but I'm in a hurry."

Its me who should say sorry since it was my fault that I was walking with my head down because I hate the heat of the sun.

He countinued his 'check up' on me while talking fast.

He tiptoed and reach my head. The unfamiliar act made my heart beat a little faster than it's normal speed.

He tried to check it for an injury which doesn't make sense since I didn't hit my head.

When his eyes met mine, he immediately averted his gaze somewhere else.

What was that? What does it mean? Do I look horrible to him? That's impossibe, you know.

He took my arms and wrote something.

"This is my name. You will find me in the football field any day, except weekends and holidays of course. Just say my name and they will tell you where I am."

He finished writing but didn't look at me again.

"I'm really really sorry but I need to go now."

He ran away fast and I was left there, stunned.

How can he talk fast and run fast?

I looked at my arm.

CAN

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When I came to the clinic near the football field I can't help but be wary about the nurse stares.

Was it weird to see an IC student in the clinic for Thai Program students?

As I approach the bed where I saw Pete was seating, I can't help but felt a little bit mad.

If Pete didn't left the library in a haste I don't need to come in this not-so-nice and not-so-clean clinic.

If Pete only brought his bag with him--

My trail of thoughts were cutted when I saw that 'guy'.

Can.

"Be careful next time, Ae. You don't know how worried I was!"

"Sorry, Can. It's just that the other team tried a dirty tactics. Next time I'll punch them before they can harm me. "

"Ae!" Pete and Can said in unison.

"I'm sorry!"

Can sighed. "I lost my chance to introduce myself to my crush, you know. I lost it because of you! You need to compensate me, Ae."

That 'Ae' and Pete laughed. "Okay, how many lunches you'll make me pay?"

"For a month."

The conversation was halted when Pete looked at my direction and called me.

"Tin!"

All of them looked at me. Maybe they're thinking I was eavesdropping their happy conversation.

I decided to leave the place fast so I walked toward them and gave Pete his bag.

"Next time bring it with you so I don't need to follow you and meet an accident."

Before leaving the place, I threw one last glance to Can, who's watching me with his small, cute eyes.

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|Tin|

I am mad. Why did I say that? Why I made him feel that meeting him was not a good thing?

Why I didn't stay and tried to talk to him and Ae?

Why I chose to Isolate myself to everyone, to Can on the first time we met?

I am just standing-- or not. I don't know. I'm like watching a movie and I can't move from my place.

I want to call my other self and tell him to go back and talk to Can, try to be his friend or anything.

I messed up our first encounter. I messed up our first conversation. I am a mess. I do not deserve his attention, even his glance.

I do not deserve him.

I am sorry, baby.

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