Is it love?

Chapter 21

JUGHEAD POV

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING⚠️

I woke up ronnie was still sleeping. I got up and went to the bathroom. I got a razor and took the blade off. I looked at it and sighed . It that really what I want? For me ? For Veronica? I sat on the edge of the bath and looked at the blade carefully. I don't want to die but I feel like this could maybe help me . I rubbed the razor blade against my skin and gasped . It hurts more than I thought. I then looked down and cried . I was bleeding a little bit. I then got on top of my wrist and cut myself  multiple times. I cried . I started to bleed more and more . Ronnie is gonna find out..I have too many scars . I then took the blade and got in in my room. I then put on a hoodie and went downstairs . I tried to hide it at the most . I got in the kitchen and I remembered my dream. I closed my eyes and sighed . I went to the living room and watched tv. Eventually, Ronnie arrived . "Good morning!" She said sitting on my lap. I hugged her "why are you wearing a hoodie? It's not cold" she said and I smirked "well I think it's cold!" I respond and she laughed "okay!" She said getting up. "I'm making us breakfast!" She said leaving me . She walked away and I sighed in relief. She eventually came back and we ate breakfast.  I got up and took our dishes and went in the kitchen . I then looked at my scars and sighed. "What are you doing?" Veronica said from behind me "nothing" I respond and she looked at me with a confused look . "Jughead let me see you're arms!" She said and I looked at her "what...why?" I said "no reasons...just show them to me !" I sighed and I got my sleeves up. She turned them around and she saw the scars . "Oh my god...Jughead why would you do that?!" She said looking at me . I then pulled away roughly and sigh . "Im fine just leave it!" I said coldly and got up the stairs. I got in my room and slammed the door. She eventually arrived and opened the door roughly " don't you dare running away from me!" She yelled and I looked at her and I cried "just leave it???? My brother just tried to commit suicide and I should just let it go?! Are you serious right now?" I then got my phone and put on my varsity jacket. "Where do you think you're going?" She asks me "I need some time alone...or is it too much to ask !" I said leaving the house . I got on my bike and got away. I went at pops and got a booth . I then got my phone and texted Betty. I asks her to come and eventually she arrived. She sat next to me and I kissed her passionately...I missed her. "I missed you.." I whispered and she smiled she kissed my cheek "why did you wanted me to come here?" She ask and I looked at her "I just needed to see you're face" I said and she smiled . "And..also" I said looking down and showed her my scars . I then felt a tears falling down my cheek . She looked up at me and sighed . "Jughead...What..why would you do that?" She said and I cried . She hold my hand and and I looked at her deep in the eyes. "My mom, my dad...pretty much everything.." I respond and she sigh. "Juggie..please don't do this again.." she said and I didn't respond. I am gonna do it again..i feel like it's what I need... I just looked at her and kissed her . I grabbed her thigh and started to French kiss...but Pop is used to it. She then pulled away "Juggie..not here" she said "shut up..." I said kissing her again and she smirked . We started to French kiss again. The kiss got more heated real fast. I brushed my hand trough her hair and hold her close to me . She moaned quietly and I kissed her cheek. We then got out of the diner and went to her place. We walked in and she pushed me softly against the wall. She started to kiss my neck. I smirked . "Wait wait wait wait wait.....aren't you're parents home?" I asked"they are out of town for the day...we have hours yet.." she said against my neck. I grabbed her ass and she moaned. She gave me a few hickeys. I moaned and then she stoped. I gave her a sad look and she laughed . She took my hand and smiled. We went to her room and she closed the door. I smirked and she slammed me against the wall. I smirked and she took my shirt off. She then kissed my abs and I moaned softly . She then started to undo my belt . I massaged her hair and she got my pants down . She then kneel herself and I smirked . She got my boxers off and I was already hard. She smirked and put my dick in her mouth. I put my head against the wall and closed my eyes . She started to suck my dick and I brushed my hands trough her soft blonde hair. I grunted and she went faster. "It's so big..." she said and I smirked . She went faster and I moaned quietly "Betty...I'm..gonna..cum.." i said moaning a little bit "just do it baby.." she said and went faster . "Oh...that's so good baby girl.. oh my-GOD!" I almost yelled and she smirked . She did that for a while and then kissed my body to my mouth. She kissed me roughly. I then picked her up and she wrapped her legs around my waist. I kissed her neck and eventually sucked it. I then laid her down on her bed and I got on top of her . She wrapped her legs around my waist and I kissed her neck. She pinned her nails on my back. I opened her blouse leaving her in her sexy black bra. I kissed her breast and i got her bra off .  she brushed her hands on my hair. I then went down and kissed her stomach. I started to undo her pants and I got them off and then She whispered in my ear "I want you to take control of my body..." she said and I smirked "and what do you want me to do " I said and she smirked . "I want you to handcuff me and covered my eyes " she said in a sexy whisper . I looked up at her and sighed "Betty..." I said because I know how...this feel. "Juggie please...it's not the same thing" she said talking about my dad. She then got up and opened her drawer . I then saw a condom on her nightstand and I put it on. She then took out handcuffs and a headband , to covered my eyes. I sat on the edge of the bed and smirked . She laid down on her bed and I put the handcuffs around her wrists . She bit her lip and I kissed her I then covered her eyes . I then rubbed my tongue against her clit ...making her gasp and moan . I did it for a while and then I kissed her breast . I squeezed her thigh sexually and she moaned . I massaged her leg and a she moaned . I then spread her legs and put myself inside of her hard and deep. She moaned and I covered her mouth by licking her lips sensually. She smirked and then I kissed her passionately. I got faster and I moaned . She was literally screaming my name and I was trying to catch my breath . I squeezed her ass and she moaned . We did that for a while and then I got the headband off. She smirked and I then let her go of the handcuffs. She kissed me and we got dressed

⚠️MESSAGE FROM THE WRITER⚠️

My message by writing this wasn't to tell you to cut yourself or just hurt yourself if you're depress ... it's not helping you and Jughead is making a big mistake by doing this . He's going to realize it later . Do to that...it's the worst solution. You might think that it's gonna help you but it's not..it's driving you much sad and depress. Just don't do ike jughead . That's all..thanks for reading💗 -love , the writer